Chapter 47: Make It Look Good

Nicki’s P.O.V.

We all boarded the plane and got ready for takeoff. I looked around to see where everyone was. These were long rows since we’re going overseas; eight to a row. That’s for the middle. My row consisted of, in order, Drake, me, Cassie, Shad, Mere, Blake, Nae, and CeeJay. Mylan wanted to sit with Nyra but I kept an eye on her. She could get a little scared on airplanes but I think she’ll be okay. I was a little worried with Nae being that close to Blake and Mere. I thought she might have been uncomfortable but she pulled out her phone and took a bunch of selfies with CeeJay. It seemed like they were having a blast so I didn’t worry about it. It’s nice that I can say that. If this was before she was off drugs then she would have made a huge deal about this but now it’s like the old Nae that I used to know.

“So are you ready for this?” Aubrey asked me. I was nervous but confident at the same time if that makes sense. Never mind, that doesn’t even make sense to me. I didn’t know how I feel about it. This competition meant a lot to the team, coaches, and me. It was like the Super Bowl of all-star dance.

“More than ready,” I smiled confidently. That’s how I’m feeling at this moment but it’s gonna change as the day gets closer. I’m always nervous up until the music starts to play, that’s when I’m in my element and no one could stop me.

“That’s my baby,” he pecked my lips. I just hope this plane ride goes by quick. I used Aubrey as a pillow and fell asleep against him.

 

 

Cassie’s P.O.V.

“Look Cass, I know we’re not on the best terms-,” Shad started to say. No, we’re not on the best terms. We’re not on any kind of good terms. I’m so pissed at him for that.

“Because I won’t have sex with you,” I reminded him. He’s such an ass to be mad because I don’t want to have sex with him. I am ready but being mad at him made me not wanna tell him.

“Yeah but baby I just miss the intimacy,” he admitted. I knew he was lonely in that department but he should have respected my wishes. That made my anger go down somewhat.

“I do too but I wasn’t ready and you made me feel bad,” I sighed. He made me feel like there was something wrong with me. I was raped and he treated me like I just didn’t wanna have sex with him just because.

“I’m sorry for that. I was just sexually frustrated,” he told me. I am too if I’m being honest because it’s been a while since I actually enjoyed sex. I just needed time and he gave me that. I think I’m ready but I’ll see after the competition.

“Well if we win, you can get some,” I smirked at him. That seems like a fair bet because I have no doubt in my mind that we’re gonna win. We’ve worked way too hard for this to let negativity and doubts to enter our system.

“I’ll hold you to that,” he pulled me close.

 

 

Nae’s P.O.V.

“We’re gonna turn up in London!” CeeJay exclaimed. She’s getting pumped up and so am I. CeeJay has always been my partner in crime and it’s nice being around her again.

“For real, I can’t wait. I need some fun,” I smiled. We’re gonna tear it up if we win and it will be so much fun. I don’t even wanna think about losing.

“Make a thug face,” she held her phone out. We both did and laughed once we saw it. “I’m so glad that you’re back,” she looked at me. I knew CeeJay missed me and I’ve missed her. It’s been a while when I could just have fun and not have to worry about anything else.

“I’m happy to be back,” I smiled at her. I truly am so I’m glad Nicki came over to my Dad’s house. After a while, it seemed like everyone was asleep. I couldn’t go to sleep on a plane; it moves too much for my liking. I dug into my bag and pulled out some skittles. I had a bunch of snacks cause my ass be hungry.

“So you gonna share or nah?” I heard Blake ask. Since when is she awake? I swore that I looked around and everyone around me was asleep but she was known for laying with her eyes closed and not actually being asleep.

“I didn’t know anyone was up,” I turned my head to look at her. She was staring back at me with her eyes wide open so I guess she was never asleep because she looks wide awake.

“Well I am and I saw something that caught my eye,” she eyed my skittles. I forgot that she was obsessed with skittles. She has been ever since we’ve met years ago.

“Take it; I have another pack,” I handed it to her. I had enough candy to last me days but I’m rooming with CeeJay and we were gonna eat up a storm. Our stomachs are bottomless pits and we never gain weight from it. I wish I could gain some weight, maybe then I would actually have bigger boobs. My butt makes up for my boobs but a girl can wish.

“You eat too much,” she laughed. I looked at her like she was crazy. She really just told me that I eat too much? She must be forgetting the past because she is dead wrong.

“I know you’re not talking. Don’t make me reminded you about the time at summer camp when you-,” I started but she put her hand over my mouth. I guess she did remember the past perfectly clear.

“Okay I won’t say anything,” she giggled as she moved her hand.

“That’s what I thought,” I smirked before grabbing my other pack. I took the plane ride to think about myself and what I’m gonna do after high school. I needed to start planning my future but I don’t like looking ahead in life. I like living in the moment and whatever happens, happens. I do know that I wanna leave New York and go somewhere else. I might wanna go back to Cali for a while and just start over. I knew that it would take a couple of months until I’m fully myself again. I just need this time to focus on me and only me. I’ve never done that before so I guess it’ll be a journey.

 

 

Nicki’s P.O.V.

We finally made it and we were all dead tired. I grabbed Mylan and we went to our room. After putting her in the bed, I took a shower. I was only alone for a little while before I felt Aubrey behind me. He scared me a bit but I relaxed as he brought me closer to him.

“You’re gonna do great,” he wrapped his arms around me. He knew exactly what to do and say to make me feel calm. He knows me inside out and I know all of him. We connect on such a higher level than just boyfriend and girlfriend. I don’t really know what it is yet but I’ll learn as the years go by.

“I’m scared,” I turned around to look at him. He ran his hands down my sides making my body relax under his touch. He looked down in my eyes and smiled a bit.

“You have no reason to be. You’re an amazing dancer and if we don’t win, we’ll know that we gave it our all,” he kissed me. He never fails to compliment me on my dance skills and I appreciate it because he pushes me to become a better dancer.

“How do you always know the right things to say,” I leaned into him.

“I’m your man baby, I know you,” he gripped my waist. I love the sound of that and it’ll never get old to me. It just makes me melt on the inside and smile on the outside.

“No, no, no, I am not having sex with you. I need to be able to walk Aubrey!” I hissed at him when I felt his hands traveling down to my ass.

“Fine,” he held his hands up in surrender.

~

We were at our last practice before tomorrow. I was calming down as I danced but I was still nervous. “Water break!” Mere blew her whistle before going over to the guys to discuss tomorrow. They didn’t show any signs of being nervous so I guess that we shouldn’t either.

“I’m exhausted,” I chugged my water and sat down on the floor. We’ve been going at it for hours and I’m so tired but it’ll be worth it in the long run.

“You and me both,” Nae plopped down next to me. She looked just about as tired as me so that shows that I’m not the only one.

“Add me in,” Blake came down with us.

“I’m with y’all,” Cassie and CeeJay came down.

“Do you think we’re ready for tomorrow?” I asked them. I wanted to know if I was the only one who was nervous.

“More than ready; just trust the team Nika,” Cassie reminded me. Blake eyed Shad and jumped up quickly. I looked at her weird but she ignored all of our weird looks. She’s been extremely weird today and I didn’t have the slightly idea as to why. Blake can be weird sometimes but not this weird.

“Um I’m gonna go talk to my brother,” she said before going over to him. She walked quickly and pulled him to the side as they started talking.

“That was weird,” I scrunched my face up. I get it if she needed to talk to him but something that urgent? That’s straight up weird but it’s Blake so what do I know?

“Extremely,” Nae shrugged before going to refill her bottle. She shouldn’t have done that because she just became our personal servant for this.

“Mine too!” I handed her my bottle as Cassie and CeeJay followed my lead. She rolled her eyes playfully before grabbing our bottles.

 

 

Nae’s P.O.V.

“Can you do it?” I heard Blake ask Shad. That’s none of my business so I went back to filling up the water bottles. Dang these are big bottles. Why didn’t I just wait and then I wouldn’t have had to fill up theirs? It doesn’t even bother me because it gives me something to do. My therapist told me to not sit down and drown myself in my thoughts. She told me to get up and move around so that’s exactly what I’m doing. “You said by tomorrow right? Okay thank you so much. You’re the best big brother ever!” She hugged him.

“I’m your only big brother,” he pushed her playfully before heading back over to the coaches. She looked over at me and walked over.

“Need help?” Blake asked me as she eyed all the water bottles. Yeah I was struggling just a little bit so I was thankful for the help.

“Yeah,” I laughed slightly as she grabbed half and went to fill them up.

 

 

Nicki’s P.O.V.

“Hey Nic,” Daven walked in when we were on break. What is he doing here? I thought that he was staying in the hotel today.

“Yeah?” I turned to look at him. He had a weird expression on his face that made me nervous.

“The test results are in and they said that they needed to talk to you about something,” he told me. I scrunched up my eyebrows but just shrugged it off.

“Okay,” I thanked him before he left. I know I’m not unhealthy, I know I’m not on drugs, and I know I’m not pregnant so I have nothing to worry about. We went back and practiced more until we finally were done. I walked out with Drake as we both went to take a shower. My Dad text me and said he wanted to have dinner and he actually invited Blake’s Dad. They have something in common; they both hate my Aunt. I met them at a restaurant with My and Aubrey. Blake came with Mere and Paris.  

“So are you girls ready for tomorrow?” Dad asked us. I guess he could sense my nerves that haven’t gone down yet.

“As ready as we’ll ever be,” I sighed.

“Mommy is gonna do so good!” My said.

“She’s gonna be the best!” Caiah smiled. It’s nice to have the support from them and how much they believe in me.

“I don’t know how tomorrow’s gonna turn out but we’ve been working our but off for this so I hope it turns out well,” I spoke honestly.

~

“Aubrey,” I called out in the middle of the night. I couldn’t go to sleep with this on my mind. I just needed to talk to him about this.

“Nicki, if you’re gonna tell me how scared you are one more time; I’m gonna fuck you numb,” he threatened. As much as I’d love that, that wasn’t what I was gonna tell him.

“It’s not that,” I sat up and looked at him. I bit my lip before thinking about how to ask this. “What would you do if I was pregnant?” I just wanted to know.

“You’re pregnant?” He popped up. He looked like I just told him that the hotel was on fire from the way he popped up.

“No, I was just asking a question,” I calmed him down. He shouldn’t get himself worked up over this when I’m pretty sure that I’m not.

“Easy, I’d marry you,” he shrugged. He would marry me? Does that mean he sees a future with us that far down the road?

“You’re serious?” I looked at him in shock. I never had someone say that to me before so I never really thought about it until now.

“You know I love you more than anything and you deserve so much more than I give you,” he rubbed my cheek. He’s amazing and it’s too good to be true but I love it.

“I love you,” I kissed him.

“I love you too; now get some rest,” he pulled me close and turned off the light. Maybe tomorrow won’t be so bad after all.