Chapter 41: Only One

Nicki’s P.O.V.

“Okay babe, I gotta go home to pack,” I told Aubrey. I was about to go to Paris but Aubrey was keeping me distracted. I was nervous about auditioning but excited at the same time. Aubrey just kept kissing me before I could leave.

“So you’re going with Cassie and Blake?” He looked at me. I bit my lip because I knew he was about to get mad but he had no right. I might have just left out a piece of information but I didn’t want him to make a big deal.

“I didn’t tell you? I’m just going with Daven. It’s a performing arts college; the top one at that. He has an audition for acting,” I explained. I didn’t even see the big deal. Daven is respectful of my relationship unlike Aubrey was.

“So you’re gonna be alone with him?” He scrunched his face up. He looked highly annoyed and jealous but he shouldn’t. Yeah we would be alone for a couple of hours but it’s not like I’m gonna fuck him. Aubrey always just thinks the worst of situations and it was just annoying.

“Uh uh uh, remember that deal,” I made him look at me. He’s not allowed to say anything about Daven after what he did. He’s way worse than Daven will ever be so he has no room to talk.

“It’s just an uncomfortable thought. I mean, you guys kissed,” he sighed. Yeah we kissed but he acts like I’m gonna have sex with Daven. That kiss was a onetime thing and it was to get him back by proving a point. Yeah it lasted longer than I thought but I mean he’s a good kisser.

“Yeah but that was to prove a point,” I rubbed his hand. It was sort of more than that but at the same time it wasn’t. I don’t even know what that means; I’m just confusing myself. Daven just confuses me and then Aubrey puts other thoughts in my head and everything becomes too much to handle.

“To you it might have been but he didn’t know about the kiss. He kissed you back because he meant it,” he shook his head. He had a point because Daven kissed me back with no hesitation with Aubrey and Jaymie in the room. I did wonder why he kissed me back that fast and didn’t think about it. I have an idea but I don’t wanna accept it.

“Doesn’t matter; we’re just friends,” I pecked his lips before getting up. We’re just friend and I’m sure that we’ll stay that way. Unlike him, I can be just friends with someone. He can’t be friends with a girl period if you exclude Mere. She practically doesn’t count; she’s a lesbian who liked one guy her whole life.

~

“So are you ready for this?” Daven asked me as we unpacked. We’re sharing a room but it has two beds. Aubrey was pissed about that also but he had to get over it. He just needs to learn to trust me and know that I won’t do half the things to him that he has done to me.

“No but I’ll survive,” I laughed. My nerves were really kicking in because I just don’t wanna disappoint myself. This school is a dream and I can’t even believe that I’m here right now.

“You’ll be fine,” he pecked my forehead before he headed to his audition. I left and headed to mine feeling sick. I can’t do this. Just as I turned around, I collided with a body. Looking up; I saw Daven looking back at me. “Turn around and show them what you got,” he told me. I shot his a small smile before doing exactly that.

Drake’s P.O.V.

“I don’t like them being alone together,” I told Mere. We were at my house just relaxing. That’s what I love about Mere, she’s someone who I can talk to who I know won’t judge me. She’s keeps it real and tells me all the things that I don’t want to hear but I need to hear. She’s been a huge part of my life and she keeps me in my place.

“Well you started this with your little friend,” she reminded me. It was my fault and it was a dumb mistake. Jaymie and I were stuck in the past but I know for a fact we wouldn’t work out. We clash too much and are different people than who we were before.

“I know but it just hurts to know that she might fall for him if she hasn’t already,” I admitted. I can’t stand the thought of her being in love with someone other than me. I couldn’t even imagine that. I would never forgive myself if that happened.

“I let Blake be around Nae even though I was feeling nervous. You have to let them go and if they come back to you, then it’s meant to be,” She rubbed my hair. She’s right but that’s different because Mere doesn’t get jealous; nervous yeah but never jealous. I get jealous easily and that just makes it worse.

“What if she doesn’t?” I kept thinking that if they both went to Paris, my chances are over. I can’t lose her; she’s the love of my life. She’s someone who I can see a future with and I can’t imagine her not in my life. I know that no matter what happens between us that our connection would always be Mylan.

“But what if she does?” Mere smirked at me. I guess I just have to trust her and wait for her to come back.

~

I knocked on Nicki’s dad’s door so I could take My for the weekend. He answered and glared at me before calling My. He was still angry at me but he can’t stop me from seeing Mylan.

“Daddy!” She jumped into my arms. She’s the only person besides Nicki who can lighten my mood even when I’m feeling down. She’s my little box of sunshine and I couldn’t imagine my life without her either.

“Hey baby girl,” I picked her up as she said bye to Robert.

~

“Daddy?” I looked over at My. We were watching a movie and eating junk food. Nicki would kill me if she knew we were doing this. This was always our secret when Nicki wasn’t around.

“Yes baby girl?” I answered.

“Why did you kiss Jaymie?” She asked bluntly. I knew she would ask this eventually but I didn’t know exactly how to answer that. Explaining this to a seven year old is something that I thought I would never have to do. I have to put this in the simplest form.

“Daddy made some mistakes,” I admitted. She nodded before going back to watching the movie. I made a lot of mistakes that I’m still trying to make up for.

 

Daven’s P.O.V.

I got back to the hotel room and waited for Nicki. My audition went great and I was positive I got in. I’m not cocky but I can read people. She opened the door and ran into my arms. “I didn’t mess up!” She exclaimed. I hugged her close as she finally calmed down. “How did you do?” She asked once we pulled away.

“I did great,” I smirked.  I never felt so alive like I did while auditioning. Paris just has this vibe and I can see myself enjoying college here.

“Cocky ass,” she pushed me before getting a drink. I just shook my head at her before following behind.

“So do you think that you got in?” I sat on the barstool. I knew she would get in but she’s too hard on herself to realize that she’s an amazing dancer. Well that’s what I’ve heard; I never saw her dance before.

“I honestly don’t know. They had good poker faces,” she pouted. I don’t know what she was talking about because she’s the queen at poker faces.

“Well you’re an amazing dancer so I know you got in,” I admitted. She looked at me in shock for a second.

“How would you know? You’ve never even seen me dance,” she grinned. She’s right but I just got a good feeling and Kolbie talked about how great she was.

“Shit if you wanna show me something, I’m willing to watch,” I put my hands up. I’m always down to see someone dance, especially Nicki.

“We’ll see,” she winked.

~

We went to a club and got hyped. I knew the owner so I had some connections. “Here,” I handed Nicki her drink.

“Thank you!” She shouted over the music. We met up with some kids that went to our school who were also auditioning. Letting go of all the stress, we partied. “Dance with me,” Nicki grabbed my hand and pulled me onto the dance floor. I don’t dance but I wouldn’t pass up the opportunity to dance with her. “You said you wanted me to show you something,” she said lowly before turning around.

She rolled her body against mine as I slowly grinded my body. The way she moved her body me got me stuck in a trance. I could not take my eyes off of her. When she dipped it low and then pulled it back up; I damn near lost it. I heard her giggle when she felt how hard I was. I turned her around and glared at her.

“You did that on purpose,” I cut my eyes at her. She was playing a dangerous game with me. I couldn’t help but let a small smile appear on my face while looking at her. She’s beyond beautiful and she doesn’t even know the half of it.

“Maybe,” she bit her lip while staring at me. I wish she wasn’t taken so I could just kiss her but I’m not going to. I would never do that but I’m so tempted with her in my arms.

“I hate the fact that you’re taken,” I mumbled as I pulled her close. We slow danced to the song. She felt so good in my arms but I had to get that out of my head.

“I love him but I can’t lie and say I’m not feeling you,” she confessed. I never thought that she actually had feelings for me. To be honest I wished she didn’t say that because now it’s just ten times harder to stay in my lane.

“I’m feeling you too,” I sighed. I’m really feeling her and it sucks that there is absolutely nothing that I can do about the way I feel.

“Just hold me,” she laid her head on my chest as we swayed back and forth.

Cassie’s P.O.V

I’ve been doing better now and I’ve gained a little weight.  I still don’t have my body back but I don’t look like a skeleton. “This is getting old real quick Cass,” Shad sighed. He was getting on my last nerves about this.

“I can’t believe that you’re mad because I won’t sleep with you! I WAS RAPED!” I shouted at him. He needs to check himself fast because this shit is unbelievable. How are you gonna be mad at me because I won’t have sex with you? What kind of shit is that?

“BUT I’M NOT HIM!” He shouted back. I know he’s not him but it’s hard to go back from being raped by the same guy who stole my innocence. I couldn’t have sex without seeing his face and giving me nightmares.

“Really, cause right about now; I can’t tell,” I walked out and slammed the door behind me. As I got home, I noticed a car in the driveway; I know that’s not whose car I think it is. I was never excited about coming home but right now a smile appeared on my face at the thought of him actually being in town.

“Oh Casandra, you’re home. You remember Raymond and his son Kyle right?” Mom said as I stared at the two guys. I knew that couldn’t have been Kyle. I have to be seeing things because this doesn’t make any sense. How did he go from the dorky best friend to this hot guy?

“Lil Cassie?” Kyle looked at me shocked. I look a lot different from when I was twelve years old; I grew up and gained a figure. I guess we were looking at each other the same way because we both were shocked.

“Kyle!” I jumped into his arms. He picked me up and spun me around a few times. He was fourteen the last time I saw him so he’s gotten a lot taller and muscular.

“You got big,” he spoke once he put me down. He still was trying to wrap his head around it and so was I.

“I got older,” I smirked. I mean you grow as you get older and there’s a blessing called puberty that helped me out a lot.

“Well come on, dinner is almost ready,” Mom told us as we followed behind her. She had a stupid grin on her face and I rolled my eyes. She always told me that I was gonna marry Kyle and she hated the fact that I was with Shad. She just doesn’t get that you can’t control who you love even if he’s being a complete ass right now.

 

Nicki’s P.O.V.

I walked back into the hotel with Daven right behind me. When we got into the room, we both collapsed on the couch. “I’m wasted!” He laughed. He didn’t need to say what I obviously knew by the state he was in.

“I shouldn’t have kept up with you,” I groaned. I’m gonna have the worse hangover in the morning. I just wanted to show him that a girl could keep up with a guy. That was the worst decision I made in a while.

“You wanted to be a big girl,” he shook his head. I regret that so much now because the room is spinning. I closed my eyes for a few seconds and it got a little better.

“Shut up!” I hit him. He laughed a bit before we went into the silent staring battle. I just couldn’t bring myself to break it.

“You look so damn sexy,” he slurred his words. I guess he was pretty drunk also but he claimed he could hold his liquor; obviously not. He was just talking a bunch of shit earlier but so was I. I told him that I could hold my liquor but I couldn’t.

“I know; that’s because I’m a bad bitch,” I said smartly. I know how bad I am; I mean just look at me. I’m not cocky but I damn sure am confident in myself. I noticed that he was looking at me differently and knew that I had to put space between us but I couldn’t yet.

“Damn right you are,” he licked his lips. I looked away quickly and tucked a piece of hair behind my ear. This was going too far and I needed some distance. No, I need a lot of distance.

“I’m gonna um go call Aubrey,” I spoke softly before getting up. His face dropped again but he nodded at me. I hated the fact that I was probably hurting him but I couldn’t do this.

“Hey Nic,” he answered right away. His voice was soothing for times like this. It’s like it automatically calms me down and I love that.

“Hey baby,” I smiled. I told him that I would call him as soon as I had the time so right now was perfect.

“I miss you,” he mumbled. It’s only two days without me but it’s nice to know that he misses me easily.

“I miss you too. I’ll be back by night time tomorrow,” I assured him. I miss him too and it sucks that he didn’t come but that wouldn’t be a good idea with Daven here.

“Nothing happened between y’all right?” He asked. I knew that he was gonna ask this question but he’s trying to trust me.

“There were some moments but no nothing happened,” I said honestly. We were trying this whole honesty thing with each other and so far it’s been working.

“I appreciate the honesty,” he thanked me. I knew that he was still skeptical about us staying in the room together but he’s letting it pass.

“I love you Aubrey and that over powers anything between Daven and I,” I promised him. I would never do him like that no matter what happens.

“I love you too Onika. I just can’t lose you,” he sighed. I heard a door close and looked around. Maybe Daven ordered some food or something.

“I gotta go but I’ll see you tomorrow,” I kissed him through the phone before hanging up. I walked out in the living room and saw all of Daven’s stuff gone. “Daven!?” I called out but received no answer. I looked in his room and it was empty. Why did he leave?