Chapter 42: Save My Heart

Nicki’s P.O.V.

I called Daven for the millionth time but he didn’t answer. It’s been two weeks and he hasn’t been home. I know he’s avoiding me but I don’t know why. Did I do something that I don’t remember? Why would he avoid me?

“This is getting old real quick Daven. Why are you avoiding me? If I said something mean when I was drunk then I’m sorry. Just call me back,” I hung up. This has become a daily routine and I just want him to tell me what I did wrong.

“He’s still avoiding you?” Drake asked me. I nodded as I held something in my hands. “What’s that?” He took it from me. It was a letter from the school in Paris. I wanted Daven and me to open it together. I sighed as I took it from Aubrey and opened it. I skimmed through it and saw that I’ve got accepted.

“I’m in,” I let out a small smile. I actually got into the school in Paris; one of the hardest performing arts colleges in the world to get into wants me. I’m moving to Paris to follow my dreams and I couldn’t even believe it. I was so happy but I couldn’t fully enjoy this moment because of Daven.

“I’m proud of you baby,” he pecked my lips. Is he really happy for me or is he covering up the fact that he’s hurt? I knew that it would hurt for me to go to Paris but at the same time he encourages me to follow my dreams. I will do whatever it takes to make this long distance work.

“I’m gonna see if he’s home,” I hopped off the couch and walked out. I saw him shooting hoops and I rushed over. “What the hell Daven!?” I snapped at him. He turned around and looked at me shocked. I was pissed because now this confirms that he was avoiding me.

“Shit,” he mumbled. Shit is right; why the hell has he been avoiding me? Here I am thinking something was wrong but now he’s outside shooting hoops. I just wanted to push him right to the ground but I fought the urge.

“Why haven’t you returned any of my calls? Better yet, why have you been avoiding me?” I crossed my arms. He looked at me for a while before actually responding.

“Look, I’m not avoiding you. I’ve been busy Nic,” he took another shot and it spun around the rim before going in. There goes another lie; since when do we lie to each other?

“So you’re lying to me now?” I ran my hand through my hair. He turned around and I took in his appearance. He seemed exhausted and just annoyed. “If I’m annoying then I’ll go,” I turned around but he grabbed my arm.

“I just need some space. Being around you is hard alright. After that night, I looked at you differently,” he rubbed the back of his neck. I nodded understanding why he’s been distant.

“Can you at least tell me if you got in? They accepted me,” I let out a smile. I was hoping he got accepted too even though he said it was a no brainer.

“Naw, I didn’t get in,” he shook his head. He didn’t get in? I’m sure Aubrey will be thrilled to hear that but I’m hurt; it absolutely sucks.

“I’m sorry Daven,” I touched his arm but he pulled away from me. I guess I can’t even touch him anymore and that’s gonna be hard.

“It’s chill; I got back up schools that I got into. I’m bout to head in though. I’ll catch you around Nic,” he nodded at me before leaving.

  

Blake’s P.O.V.

“Grow some balls Blake and knock on the door,” I told myself as I stood on the porch. I knocked on the door and took a deep breath. He came to the door and looked at me strangely.

“Can I help you?” He asked politely. He acts very polite but I knew that was all an act so I fought the urge to roll my eyes.

“I have a few questions and you’re the only one who has answers to them,” I stated honestly. He probably doesn’t even know who I am but this is kind of important.

“I know who you are, Blakelynn. Come in, we were just about to have dinner,” he smiled before he let me in. Here goes nothing.

  

Drake’s P.O.V.

I was at a restaurant with Nicki tonight. We needed to talk about our relationship and Mere agreed to babysit. “So where do we start?” I asked her. She swallowed her food before saying, “When she came into the picture.”

“We never really had closure and old feelings came up. I was caught up in the past when I should have been focusing on the present and possible future,” I spoke honestly.

“Why did you have to kiss her?” She wiped a tear that fell down. I knew it was a stupid mistake but I also knew that she will always remember that no matter if she forgave me or not.

“I was caught in a moment. It seemed at that moment, we were back in Toronto. It was a huge mistake and if I could take it back, I would,” I apologized.

“I’m not sure if I would take back kissing Daven,” she shifted in her seat. That made me extremely uncomfortable and jealous.

“So do you like him or something?” I tried to control my anger since we were trying to be completely honest with each other.

“I’m not gonna lie to you and say I don’t have feelings for him. I do and if you weren’t in the picture, I would give him a chance. You are in the picture so you don’t have to worry about that. He’s keeping his distance and so am I. He’s not even going to Paris with me,” she explained. That was good news; now I don’t have to worry about him being with her in Paris.

“I just want to get back on good terms with our relationship,” I grabbed her hand.

“So do I Aubrey but it’s hard to pretend that both of those kisses never happened. I kissed Daven to get you angry but also because I wanted to. We started to become distant to the point where I’m not even sure if this is gonna work,” she sighed.

“We can try right?” I locked eyes with her. She took a minute before nodding. I have to fix my relationship before I lose her. I know she would run right to Daven.

Daven’s P.O.V.

“Yep, I didn’t get in,” I sighed as I threw the acceptance letter in the trash can. I can’t have her finding out that I did get in. I can’t handle being in Paris with her. I’m just gonna go to Toronto and go to college there. Jaymie and I are trying to work out our relationship but it’s hard.

“So how long are you going to lie to her?” Kolbie asked me as she eyed the paper in the trash. She always stays in my business and I think she really needs a hobby because this gets annoying.

“Stay out of my business sis,” I spoke before leaving. She wouldn’t understand because I barely understand myself.

 

 

 

Nicki’s P.O.V.

Aubrey has been trying really hard to work on our relationship. We’re getting there but it’s nowhere near perfect. “I love you,” he said as we lied on his bed. We weren’t gonna have sex until we both knew it was right. If I’m being honest, at this moment I don’t think I could have sex with him.

“I love you too Aubrey,” I sighed. After I left his house, I went next door. I knew he doesn’t wanna see me but I need to know something. Kolbie answered and her eyes went wide when she saw me.

“Um he’s busy,” she said quickly. It was a little too quick for my liking but I brushed it off. She looked like she didn’t expect anyone to ring the doorbell.

“Busy how?” I raised an eyebrow. If he’s avoiding me again then he can miss me with that bullshit. I’m not up for it today.

“Busy like fucking Jaymie busy,” she explained. He’s back with her now? I guess if you want to get over someone, go to someone else.

“Oh, I didn’t know that they got back together,” I was taken aback. I mean he could have at least got someone who was better than Jaymie. She’s too shady for my liking.

“Yeah but you should probably know something,” she locked eyes with me. What would I need to know from her of all people? We barely talk so I was curious.

“What is it?” I tilted my head. What did Daven do now? If he’s moving or something like that then I give up and I’m gonna push him to the ground.

“Daven got into the school in Paris, he just decided that he didn’t want to go,” she admitted. He got in and he didn’t tell me? Why the hell would he do that?

“Thank you,” I told her before driving home. I went to the living room and saw my dad watching football. “Can I ask you something?” I asked while sitting next to him.

“Of course princess,” he muted the TV. I explained everything to him so he would understand the question.

“Why would he lie to me?” I questioned. Daven never lied to me before so I don’t understand why he’s starting to do it now.

“From what you’ve said, he seems to like you. If you’re gonna continue to be with that ass, then he’s not gonna stay in the way,” he shrugged.

“He has a name daddy,” I laughed. He’s never gonna forgive Aubrey and that sucks because they were cool before.

“I like Daven better. He’s polite and he’s your age,” he nodded. He always thought Aubrey was too old for me but he’s only four years older so I don’t see what the big deal was.

“Of course you do,” I playfully rolled my eyes. He only met Daven a couple of times but he took a liking to him quickly.

“Just make sure you’re not making a mistake Onika,” he reminded me. If staying with Aubrey because I love him is a mistake then it’s the best mistake that I’ve ever made. I can’t see myself without him.

“Never,” I pecked his cheek before going upstairs. I was almost asleep when I heard the door open. I knew that it was either Caiah or Mylan; maybe it was both of them.

“Nika, can we sleep with you?” Caiah asked with My next to him.

“Of course you can,” I scooted so they would have space. I’m grateful to have my brother back into my life and my Dad. This is how it should have been but with Mom. I’m not gonna lie and say that I don’t miss the hell out of her because I do. She was always there for me and now I don’t really have a female role model. It gets lonely but I remember everyone I have in my life. I can’t really complain.