Chapter 38: Your Love is a Lie

 

Blake’s P.O.V.

Nae: Let me explain before you assume anything

Yeah she really thinks that she can explain this one. I swear Nae gets on my damn nerves. “Alright, I’m going by Nae’s,” I told Mere. I was very shaky about going over there but I controlled myself and calmed down my nerves. I was nervous that I would blow up on her but she deserves it. I just never wanted to blow up on her again after that whole hospital thing.

“Be careful,” she warned before pecking my lips. I love a girlfriend who could trust me. It just showed how much she has faith in our relationship. Mere never got jealous and I was thankful for that because I don’t get jealous.

“Always,” I smirked before kissing her again. I walked out and drove to her house. I knocked on the door and Karla answered.

“I never expected to see you again. It’s nice to see you Blake, she’s in her room,” she let me in. I never wanted to come to this house again but I want answers before I’m done with Nae once and for all. I took a deep breath before knocking.

“Come in Blake,” she called out. That was completely weird but I just shrugged it off and opened her door.

“How’d you know it was me?” I asked while walking in. Her room didn’t change but I spotted two bottles of pills on her desk. I see that she hasn’t changed either.

“Karla never knocks,” she cracked a small smile. I sat in a chair while she sat on her bed. I was not here for smiles and jokes; I’m here for answers and answers only.

“Well explain,” I crossed my arms. I’m really interested in what she has to say because I know Aaron and I knew when they were together.

“Look I’ve been with him for about a year-,” she started but I cut her off.

“A year! A fucking year!?” I snapped at her. She was with him for a year!? She was dating him while she was dating me? I knew Nae could go low but I never thought that she would do that to me of all people.

“Calm the hell down and let me finish,” she snapped back. I sighed before sitting back in my seat. “It was on and off. When I got with you, I wasn’t with him. When we broke up, I went back to him,” she explained. Of course she goes back to the guy who got her addicted to this shit. That's the smartest idea she ever had; note the sarcasm?

“Did you fuck him when you were with me?” I stared at her. I feel like I already know the answer but wanted to see if she’ll tell me the truth.

“Why does that matter? You were out kissing Chimere,” she crossed her arms. Of course she’s gonna throw that shit in my face. It was a fucking kiss! A kiss is far from fucking someone else when you’re already in a relationship! I need to take a deep breath and calm down.

“Answer the question Jaznae,” I called her by her full name so she would know that I was serious. I was so beyond done with her at this point. I had one more question and then I will leave.

“Once,” she sighed. At least she actually told the truth instead of lying and expecting me to believe any bullshit that comes out of her mouth. All she tells are lies these days so hearing the truth is surprising.

“When?” I turned my head knowing exactly when. This is exactly why I’m done; I can’t take her bullshit anymore. Of all people to hurt she hurts the one who was always there for her. I never once made her feel like a bad person but now I’m just seeing who she really is.

“When you told me that you guys kissed,” she admitted. She would do that shit to just get back at me. She’s that pitiful and childish so I’m not surprised.

“That’s all I needed to know,” I got up but she pulled me back. I’m so done with being here so whatever she has to say she better hurry up before I blow up on her.

“I’m sorry okay. I never meant to hurt you. That’s exactly why I didn’t want to get with you because I knew it would end like this; it wrecked our friendship,” she cried. She actually tried to make me feel sorry for her. And the academy goes to Jaznae for being the greatest actress I ever met because she really had me fooled. She really made me think that she actually cared about me but she only cares about herself. That’s just it, she’s not herself. All these fucking drugs that she takes are turning her into a completely different person and I’m just done.

“No, you wrecked our friendship. You’re too childish and I’m so beyond done with you at this point. Do all of us a favor and get some damn help Nae,” I glared at her before leaving. Fuck the old Blakelynn because I would have forgiven her but the new one doesn’t give a fuck.

Jaymie’s P.O.V.

“I feel like a cheap hoe,” I sighed to Aubrey as we sat on the couch. I can’t believe he has me here of all places.

“Hey, they don’t want us hanging out so I had to do something,” he shrugged. He acts like it’s not a big deal but it is.

“But a hotel Aubrey!? This makes it look worse than it is,” I chuckled. It’s so beyond stupid that it’s hilarious. Only Aubrey would think of shit like this.

“So it’s not like we’re gonna fuck,” he looked at me. He’s right about that but it still doesn’t make me feel any better.

“Nope, I’m good with Daven,” I smirked. I’m perfectly fine with Daven and I wish he could see that but he’s mad at me. We’re making progress so I guess that counts.

“And my girl is the best I ever had,” he smirked back. I shook my head with a grin on my face. Did he really just use that line at me?

“Doubt it,” I grabbed another piece of pizza. It was so good and I haven’t had pizza in forever. I’m on a diet but I say fuck it; today is my cheat day.

“Why fat ass?” he laughed before grabbing another piece. He always called me that because I would eat so much but wouldn’t gain a pound when I was younger.

“Because you wrote that song about me,” I sat back and stared at him. He looked at me a little surprised but then nodded.

“You remember that song?” He rubbed the back of his neck. He actually thought I wouldn’t remember a song that he wrote about me? I loved that song and I still have it on my iPod.

“Yep, you wrote it while you were with Nebby. She thought it was about her and since I didn’t wanna start any drama,” I left it there.

“If you knew that the song was about you, why didn’t you tell me?” He questioned. He thought that it would’ve been so simple to tell him but it wasn’t like that back then.

“Because I didn’t want to start any drama,” I repeated. Let’s just say Nebby and I don’t exactly see eye to eye. She wanted Aubrey but I had him first so she hated me. When we broke up, she had no problem being his rebound.

“Shit you know I would’ve left Nebby for you. You’re the one who ended things,” he put his head in my lap. I knew that he would’ve left her for me but I didn’t want that.

“I was scared,” I said small. We never talked about why we broke up. I never really wanted to get into that just because. It’s just hard remembering the past that has so many hidden horrible memories.

“Scared of what?” He looked up at me. I was scared of a lot of things dealing with him because he made me feel some type of way.

“Of love Aubrey,” I rubbed his curls. He made me feel a way that I never felt before at that time. I was scared because I didn’t know what it was but I know now that it was love.

“Too bad we didn’t have this talk years ago,” he closed his eyes. We should’ve talked it out but I always avoided that topic.

“Yeah, too bad,” I looked down. We locked eyes and just fell into a staring battle. “Um,” I broke the stare and grabbed another pizza.

“That’s the last one!” He complained. He’s suck a baby and I couldn’t help but giggle at his facial expression.

“Oh well,” I bit it. “Mine,” I ate more. He grabbed the rest from me. “Aubrey!” I pouted. He knew better than to take my food.

“Fat ass,” he tore it in half and gave me a piece.  I smiled happily before grabbing it and finishing my half. This pizza is so good but maybe it’s because I haven’t had food like this is months.

“You used to love this fat ass,” I laughed before getting up to grab a drink. I was joking but when I heard him, that made me stop walking.

“Still do,” I heard him mumble. I acted like I didn’t hear it but I knew how that made me feel. I kept quiet and just grabbed a can of soda that we bought.

Nicki’s P.O.V.



“So what’s new?” I asked Cassie and Blake. They came to my house so we could catch up. It’s been a while since we all could really talk.

“I’m getting help,” Cassie smiled. It’s nice to see that Shad is helping her get the help she needs and deserves.

“That’s great Cass,” I rubbed her back. I was truly happy for her.

“I talked to Nae,” Blake said. I groaned at the sound of that and looked at Blake cautiously, scared of what else she might say. When you add Nae in an equation and then add drugs and someone else, you get a disaster. Nae really is a good person when she’s not on drugs and I have no idea when I’ll ever see the old Nae.

“Don’t tell me that you forgave her,” I sighed. I swear if she forgave her, I would be so done at this point. She knows just as well as I do that Nae needs help.

“Hell naw, I told her ass to get some help!” Blake exclaimed. We all fell out laughing because that is so not like Blake.

“Damn I like this new Blake,” Cassie laughed. She’s been so much more opened and blunt where is hilarious to see this side of her.

“Thanks to Mere,” she blushed. It seemed like she was truly happy to be with Mere and that’s great. I didn’t want her thinking about Nae because that’ll just make things worse.

“So how about you Nic? How’s Coach Graham, I mean Drake. It’s gonna take me a while to get use to that,” Cassie chuckled.

“I’m so done by this point. He’s been sneaking around to hang out with his ex like I don’t know. I know they’re not doing anything but the fact that he’s sneaking around makes me mad. If he kisses that bitch, he better be prepared for me to play fire with fire,” I shook my head in anger. Blake and Cassie shared a look before looking at me again.

“He’s gonna be fucked up,” Blake mumbled.

“Damn right he is,” I smirked. I already had it set in my head what to do if he kisses that bitch and I’m not afraid to do it.

~

“Get off of me,” I pushed Drake off. He wanted to have sex like nothing was wrong. At this point, sex with him isn’t even the same. I’m too focused on him lying to me time after time to the point where it’s a routine.

“Man why don’t you ever want to have sex anymore?” He sighed. I shook my head and got up. “Where are you going?” He called out to me but I just left. I grabbed some sweats and a jacket before walking out the door. I walked next door and knocked. Daven came out dressed and got into the car.

“Where to this time?” He looked over at me.

“I don’t even know,” I admitted as we started driving.

 

Drake’s P.O.V.

Mylan wanted to hang out with Nyra so I took her over there. Kolbie wasn’t there so it was just Jaymie and I. “What do you think they’re doing?” Jaymie asked me.

“Bashing us,” I bet. I’m so sick of her hanging out with Daven every time we got into an argument. She always has to go to him and that just makes me even angrier.

“Let’s do something fun,” she pulled me into the kitchen. We started making spaghetti but I kept throwing noodles at her until I accidently threw some of the sauce. “Aubrey! Do you know how long it’s gonna take for me to get this out of my hair!?” She pouted. I laughed while grabbing more. “Stop Aubrey!” Jaymie shrieked as I grabbed her by her waist. I turned her around and our laughing immediately stopped. She placed her hand on my cheek and stared in my eyes. “Aubrey maybe we shouldn’t do this,” she mumbled.

“I just wanna see if it’s still there,” I whispered as she got closer. I leaned in to meet her halfway and our lips locked. I pulled her closer as I deepened the kiss. She grabbed my head as I picked her up and sat her on the counter. I moved down and kissed her spot. I started sucking on it as I heard her moan.

“Aubrey,” she whispered. I went back and attacked her lips. She pulled her shirt off and I pulled her closer.

 “Aah!” We heard a scream and immediately pulled apart. I looked past her and saw Nyra. She ran back upstairs as I backed off Jaymie. She put on her shirt and we stood in silence.

“That shouldn’t have happened,” she said lowly. I don’t know what came over me because this wasn’t supposed to happen.

“I know,” I nodded before heading to the door. Nicki is gonna kill me and she has every right to. I fucked up and I just hope that she doesn’t find out but she finds out everything.

“Hey,” she pulled my hand. I turned back to her. “For what it’s worth, it’s still there,” she smirked slightly before letting me go.

 

Mylan’s P.O.V.

“I saw your Daddy doing the nasty with Auntie Jaymie,” Nyra whispered to me.

“But Daddy is with Mommy,” I scrunched my face up.

“I saw them,” she shrugged before playing with her toys. Mommy said when two people are doing the nasty then they love each other. Do they love each other? What about Mommy?

~

“Mommy?” I looked up at Mommy as she brushed my hair.

“Yes baby?” She asked me.

“Does Daddy love Jaymie?” I asked curiously.

“Why would you ask that?” She stopped brushing and looked at me. I looked at her scared and quickly shook my head. “You can tell me anything My,” she put me in her lap.

“Nyra saw Jaymie and Daddy doing the nasty,” I whispered.

“You mean kissing?” She looked at me to make sure. I nodded and she tucked me into bed. “Goodnight baby,” she kissed my head.

“Goodnight mommy,” I looked at her confused and I think I heard her say, “Here we go.”