Chapter 35: Ask Yourself

Nicki’s P.O.V.
 

We were currently in practice. Everyone has been doing really well recently. Nae quit but that’s okay because Kolbie filled her place. “That was great guys! It was so good that we’re ending practice ten minutes early!” Mere said as everyone cheered.

“Have a great weekend,” Shad smiled at all of us. Everyone got their stuff and left except for Blake, Cassie, and I.  The three that are dating the coaches, how ironic is that?

“Come here baby,” Mere smirked at Blake. Blake walked to her and kissed her; I’ll admit that they’re cute. Cassie looked really drained. She’s been looking more and more drained each day and that makes me worried.

“Make sure you drink fluids Cass,” Shad said as he kissed her forehead. I don’t think fluids are the only things that she needs. She looks extremely sick but she always tells me that she’s fine so I’ll let it go for now.

“Let’s go home,” Drake said as he threw his arm around me. We picked up Mylan from school and drove home. She wanted to see Caiah so I dropped Drake off and we went to Dad’s house. I walked in with the key he gave me weeks ago. A dog ran to us and My immediately bent down to his level.

“Hi Coco!” She patted the dog’s head. Ever since she saw Coco, she has been begging me for a dog; how about no. I am not getting no damn dog so she better be talking about a stuffed one.

“Nicki!” Caiah ran into my arms. I caught him and kissed him repeatedly. He giggled before I put him down. He tackled My as I went to search for Dad. He was in the kitchen cooking up a storm.

“Hey Daddy,” I spoke behind him. He put his spoon down and turned to hug me.

“Hey Nic,” he kissed my forehead before going back to cooking. He’s a really good cook and he says cooking helped him keep his mind off drugs.

“So Blake said she might want to do the DNA test,” I told him as I sat on a stool. Blake is really nervous about it but Paris convinced her.

“Okay, just tell me the time and date,” he nodded.

“Can you please explain how all this happened? How could you sleep with Auntie?” I pleaded. He put the food in the oven and then came to sit next to me.

“Your mother and I were separated for a while. We were going to get a divorce. We couldn’t seem to get alone and she wanted a divorce. That hurt me so I wanted to hurt her back. I was drunk and it was a mistake. She forgave me and we had Caiah and Mylan years later. Everything was perfect but then she died. Then your Aunt decided to spring the news of Paris and Blake being my possible daughters on me,” he explained.

“So Auntie knew that Caiah was alive?” I scrunched up my eyebrows. He nodded and I grew mad. I’m never talking to her again. “Thank you,” I hugged him before he went back to cooking.

 

 

Cassie’s P.O.V.

I quickly went into the locker room and put on my hoodie; I refused to take this thing off. They will obviously see something that I’m not ready for them to see. I walked out as they begun practice; I kept getting dehydrated and had to sit out.

“Here,” Shad offered me a Gatorade as he sat by me. I just looked at the drink not wanting to drink it. Gatorade isn’t anything like water at this moment. All I drink is water and that’s the only thing that I will drink.

“Do you have water?” I asked. He looked at me strange before getting some. I love Gatorade so I knew he was confused. He came back over handing me water and I immediately chugged it down.

“You should take off that damn hoodie,” he tried to take it off but I held it down. He’s been trying to get me to take off this hoodie since I’ve been back but I’m not going to.

“No!” I snapped. Can’t he just take no as an answer? I get it that he’s worried but I don’t need anyone to be worried about me; I’m fine.

“Why do you always wear that? What are you trying to hide? Are you pregnant?” He eyed me. Of course that the first thing he would ask; am I pregnant?

“I’m not pregnant Shad,” I cut my eyes at him. Why does everyone automatically assume that? Do I look pregnant?

“Then take it off,” he stared me down.

“Please don’t make me do this,” I whispered. I noticed most of the team looking at me. I knew they all wanted me to take it off. I quickly got up and ran out of the gym. Shad chased me but he didn’t have to run far because I passed out.

 

 

Shad’s P.O.V.



 

I quickly grabbed her and helped her up. She looked like she was in a daze and she was burning up. I took off her hoodie and almost dropped her from what I saw.

“What have you done to yourself?” I scrunched up my face. She had tears swell in her eyes.

“Shad I was anorexic for years but it wasn't this bad. It hasn't been this bad for years,” she cried. She was skinny as a stick and I damn sure knew that she wasn’t like this before she left.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” I locked eyes with her.

“Because it’s disgusting and I hate how I look,” she sighed. She couldn’t look disgusting no matter how hard she tried; she’ll always be beautiful to me.

“How did this happen?” I ran my hand down her back. I felt so much more bones than I should. She looked unhealthy and that just made me more worried.

“He kept calling me fat so I stopped eating. I can’t eat without thinking of him,” she shook her head. I knew that she was anorexic when she was younger and it got better but now it’s like five years ago all over again.

“We’re gonna get through this okay?” I tilted her head up. She nodded before I kissed her. I’m not gonna let her go through this alone, I’ll be right by her side the whole way.

 

 

 

Drake’s P.O.V.

“Come on! Daven said his girl got home yesterday,” Nicki told me as I got dressed. She’s been trying to rush me for the past thirty minutes but I was taking my time.

 

“And I have to meet her why?” I looked at her. Nicki wanted me to meet her so I could be less concerned about them hanging out. I don’t care if he got a girl or not; I don’t like the way he looks at Nicki.

 

“Because she’s gonna be staying next door for a while,” she gave me a look. I finally got dressed and grabbed My. We walked over and knocked on the door. I still hate that he lives right next door because that just makes it easier for him to see Nicki.

 

“Hey,” Daven opened the door and pulled Nicki into a hug. That lasted too long in my head but I bit my tongue; no bad mouthing him.

 

“Daven!” My ran to hug him. I didn’t like the fact that My took a liking to him. That just makes things worse that she likes him.

 

“Wassup beautiful,” he kissed her before putting her down. He finally let his eyes meet me and I could tell that he was trying to be polite.

 

“Hey,” he dapped me up before letting us in. I’m still trying to get use to him but if Nicki said nothing will happen, then I trust her. “Jaymie’s upstairs changing but I’ll go get her,” he disappeared upstairs as we walked into the living room. Nyra attacked My with a hug.

 

“Hi baby,” My picked her up. I know My loves being older than her. She even asked us for a baby brother last night. Nicki almost choked on her food and I fell out laughing. Nicki is eighteen and I know she is nowhere ready to have a child.

 

“Guys, this is Jaymie. Jaymie this is Nicki, Mylan, and Drake,” he introduced us. I eyed her and then something clicked in my head.

 

“Hi,” she smiled and shook Nicki’s hand. She got to me and forced a smile. I tried to hold in my laugh while returning the forced smile. She rolled her eyes before extending her hand.

 

“Hello,” she shook my hand before talking to My. We all sat around getting to know each other. It’s not like I need to get to know her, I know everything about her.

 

“So Jaymie, where are you from?” I smirked. I already knew the answer to that but I thought I should have a little fun. I wouldn’t mind messing with her for a bit.

 

“I’m from Toronto, Canada,” she cut her eyes at me. I knew that she wanted me to stop but I was just getting started.

 

“Babe, you’re from there,” Nicki told me. I nodded while staring at Jaymie. Jaymie gave me a look warning me to stop but I ignored her.

 

“How did you two meet?” I looked in between them. They looked like total opposites and he is not the kind of guy she’s into. She told me that she would never date a kid and that’s exactly who he is.

 

“I met Jaymie through family friends,” Daven explained. Family friends my ass, they had to have met through Kolbie.

 

“You have family?” I cocked my head. She cut her eyes at me and I just shot her an innocent look. She doesn’t have any family that’s still living besides her cousin.

 

“Well I’m gonna go to the bathroom,” she stood quickly and left. Looks like she couldn’t take the heat that well.

 

“What’s your problem?” Nicki hissed at me. Why is she getting mad at me? I didn’t do anything wrong in my opinion.

 

“I was just trying to get to know her,” I shrugged. Those questions were friendly enough, it’s not my fault that she stormed out.

 

“Bullshit, go over there and apologize to her,” Nicki pushed me up before going over to sit next to Daven. I got up and walked towards the bathroom. I didn’t know where it was but I got pulled into a room.

 

“What the hell?” I looked around and saw a very pissed off Jaymie. She raised her hand and slapped me hard. “What the fuck Jayms!?” I held my burning cheek.

 

“Oh how does that feel Aubrey?” She crossed her arms. She still got them damn man hands and I forgot how much that hurts.

 

“Damn girl, what are you doing here?” I asked her. She was in Toronto last time I saw her and she hates New York.

 

“I’m here visiting my boyfriend. I met him through Kolbie,” she sighed. I figured that they met through Kolbie. She’s best friends with Kolbie and has been since she was really young. I looked around and saw we were in a bedroom.

 

“Whose room is this?” I looked around. It was pink and had toys everywhere so my only guess could be Nyra.

 

“Nyra’s,” she said simply. It looked like it.

 

“So we gonna act like we don’t know each other or tell them?” I sat down on her bed. She came and sat next to me.

 

“I don’t want to explain how we know each other,” she looked embarrassed. I figured that she didn’t tell him about her past. She always has a hard time telling people about her past.

 

“Shit I ain’t embarrassed,” I threw my hands up. I don’t know why she would be embarrassed, she had to do what she had to do.

 

“Well I am, he doesn’t know about that,” she put her head in her hands.

 

“So what? You stripped, big deal,” I tried to calm her down but she cried. “Hey Jayms, it’s cool. I’m not gonna tell him,” I reassured her.

 

“You knew me before I stripped and now I bet you look at me differently,” she looked at me. I went quiet for a minute confirming her thoughts but I broke the silence.

 

“Well I mean I did fuck you so,” I trailed off. You usually look at someone differently after you have sex with them.

 

“Shut up!” She laughed while lightly pushing me. “You also forgot to mention that I was your first time,” she smirked at me.

 

“I was yours so I don’t know why you’re smirking,” I chuckled. She laughed while slightly blushing. That was such an awkward experience but we were glad that we got it over with. I think we were around sixteen when that happened.

 

“I’ve missed you Aubrey,” she sighed. I haven’t seen her in a couple of years but we used to text on and off. She could have given me a warning that she was in New York. When Daven said that his girlfriend’s name was Jaymie, I didn’t think it would be my Jaymie.

 

“I’ve missed you too Jaymie,” I pulled her into a hug before we got up and left the room. We got to the living room and I saw Nicki sitting too close to Daven for my liking.

 

“Did you apologize?” Nicki cocked an eyebrow at me. She always wants me to do the right thing but I didn’t even have to apologize. She just didn’t want me blurting out her past.

 

“Does this show you I did?” I turned my head and she saw the red from when she slapped me. She should apologize for how much that shit hurt. I don’t get why she had to slap me of all things.

 

“Oh my god!” She jumped up and looked at my face. She turned it and rubbed her hand across it gently while looking closer at it.

 

“Damn babe, what did he do?” Daven laughed slightly. I didn’t do anything but Jaymie is known for being a very physical person. The only time that came in handy was when we had sex.

 

“He got on my bad side,” Jaymie winked at me before sitting in Daven’s lap. I’m sure I got on her bad side alright.

 

“Are y’all cool now?” Nicki looked at us. Jaymie looked up at me and tried to hide the smirk that she wanted to release.

 

“I don’t have a problem,” I threw my hands up. She let out a small laugh before nodding her head.

 

“As long as he stays in his lane,” she stated. I’ll make sure to stay in my lane whatever the hell that means.

 

 

 



Nicki’s P.O.V.

Paris, Blake, Drake, Mere, Cassie, Shad, Dad, Caiah, Mylan, and I were all crowding around the table in my living room. The results were finally in. It was like everyone was scared to look inside.

“I just want you two to know that no matter what’s in this envelope, nothing will change,” Dad promised them. They nodded as he opened it.

“Wait!” Blake said. Paris turned to her and tried to calm her down. “Okay, go on,” she wiped some tears. They stood together wrapped in each other’s arms to await their faith.

When I get bored with stories, I switch things up and that's exactly what I did with this one. I just wrote the last chapter for Worth The Wait and I'm finally able to say that I'm officially done with this story. The last chapter is very emotional so be prepared. I almost hate myself for how I ended it but I like it from a writer's perspective. So if I almost hate myself, y'all are gonna really hate me. I finally wrote to 100 chapters and I feel accomplished because I never stuck to a story that long. I seriously can't believe that I'm done with this story. The reason that I don't post more often is because I type really fast and it takes me triple that time to edit; I'm a perfectionist. I stay editing my post even the ones that are already posted. I might have finished 100 chapters but I need to edit chapters 45-100 so that'll take a while.