Chapter 58: So Much I Never Said

Nicki

Aubrey and I were still sitting here waiting. Some people left and all that’s left is; Mere, Blake, Nae, Cassie, Shad, Alexis, My Dad, Caiah, and Channing. Everyone wished Mylan the best. I still didn’t like the fact that it’s been so long. I just don’t like hospitals, I’ve been in them too much. Once for my mom, Caiah, Nae, Cassie, and Shad.

“Family of Mylan Madison Maraj-Graham?” Aubrey and I jumped to our feet and walked over. It’s about time that they called her name.

“How is she?” I asked right away.

“Mylan had to get her appendix taken out immediately because it was about to burst. She keeps having asthma attacks because of her medication for her headaches; she’s severally allergic to it so we switched that. Overall Mylan will be fine but she should be monitored at all times for about a week or two,” she explained to us. We nodded and took in all of the information.

“Can we see her?” She nodded and led us to My’s room. When we got in, My was awake but had her eyes closed a little and looked in pain. We both rushed over to her side and I grabbed her hand.

“Mommy,” she mumbled to me. She only calls me mommy when she feels horrible which is now. It hurts to see her in pain but at least she’ll get better.

“How do you feel baby?” I rubbed her hair. She opened her eyes and looked over at us.

“My side hurts,” she pointed to the spot where her appendix was removed.

“You had to get you appendix taken out,” I told her. She looked shocked at first but then nodded in understanding.

“Daddy,” she called to Drake and he walked over to her other side and held her close.

“It’s gonna be alright baby girl,” he kissed her head while I rubbed her hand. It’s times like these that make me miss all three of us together. Damn Nae and her wise words.

“I’ll go tell everyone that you’re okay,” I walked out and back into the waiting room. I explained to them and they went to see her before leaving.

“Caiah and I will be at the Hilton for two weeks,” Dad told me and I nodded before hugging them both.

“I’ll stay,” Channing insisted. Does his ass not get the hint? It’s not necessary for him to stay when I don’t know how long I’m gonna be here.

“Channing go back to Nae’s; I don’t know how long they’re gonna keep her. Besides, I might have to stay at Aubrey’s house for a week or two,” I closed my eyes because I already knew what was coming.

“You ain’t about to stay with that nigga for a week or two,” he demanded.

“My daughter is on bed rest for a week or two and needs both of her parents to monitor her. I don’t know about you but I know that I am gonna do whatever the fuck I want,” I snapped. He pulled me close and whispered something in my ear. I pulled away and nodded at him before he pecked my lips.

“I love you,” he mumbled against my lips.

“I love you too,” I kissed him one more time before he left. I turned and ran my hand through my hair before sighing.

Mylan

“You need anything baby girl?” Dad asked me as he checked my temperature again.

“I’m okay,” I let out a small smile. Mom was coming over and moving into the guest room for the time being. I’ve been out of the hospital for a day and Dad hasn’t let me lift a finger. I was still trying to figure out what Mom said to me in my dream. What is she going through that’s dark? “Dad, I have a question and I’m not sure if it even makes sense,” I told him.

“What is it?” He sat on the edge of my bed and gave me his full attention.

“When I was asleep in the hospital, I saw my Mom that died in my dreams. She said that Mom is going through something dark that no one knows about,” I said and he looked at me concerned. “Does it really sound that crazy?” I cringed.

“No, not at all; you just got me thinking. I’ll look into it alright?” He kissed my forehead before leaving out my room. I trust him to know that he’ll take care of everything.

Cassie

“Come here baby,” I told Alexis. She climbed into my lap and looked up at me. “I need to explain something to you,” I ran my fingers through her curly hair. She had such beautiful hair but she always gets crumbs in it, I wonder from what; note the sarcasm.

“Daddy said he would tell me about the birds and the bees when I turned eighty,” she scrunched up her face. I laughed at Kyle’s dramatics.  

“No it’s not that,” I shook my head. Kyle always was way too overdramatic about guys with Alexis but it was kind of cute. He’s just a protective father and you can’t be mad at that.

“What is it mommy?” She started to play with the rings on my fingers. She always finds interest in the little things but it keeps her entertained so I’m not complaining.

“You sort of have two daddies,” I tried to explain the best I could. I think that’s the best way she could understand this situation.

“What does that mean?” She stopped playing with my rings and gave me her full attention. I thought about what I was gonna say so that it would make sense to her.

“One Daddy raised you but one Daddy help create you,” I looked at her. That made sense to me and that was the least complicated way I could explain this.

“So which one is Daddy?” She asked curiously.

“He’s the one who raised you,” I confessed.

“Is my other Daddy the guy at the hospital?” She looked at my bracelets and started to play with those.

“How did you know that?” I snapped my head towards her. She is way too smart for her age.

“I have his eyes and smile,” she smiled at me. I guess that’s what she told him that made him realize that she was his.

“Well yes that’s your other daddy,” I rubbed her back.

“Can I see him?” She pulled at me one of my many rings and took it off.

“Of course you can,” I smiled. She put my ring on her ring finger.

“Look Mommy; I’m married!” She flashed me the ring.

“Don’t tell Daddy that,” I giggled.

Nicki

“Channing stop!” I snapped at him as he went on and on about me staying with Aubrey. I’m so tired of him going on and on about him. Can’t he see that I’m marrying him and not Aubrey? I just don’t know why he couldn’t get that through his head but he’ll always be this jealous beast when he wants to.

“I don’t want you over there,” he glared at me. He lost his mind if he thinks that I’m not gonna go over there and be there for my daughter who just got out of the hospital. I don’t care what kind of ego or pride that I’m bruising but I’m not listening to this shit. I put Mylan before anybody including him. She’s everything to me and I can’t imagine losing her in any kind of way.

“And I told you that you have to trust me,” I glared back. That’s something he always lacked from me when it came to Aubrey because when we first met, we were friends. I cried to him about Aubrey and he helped me get over him. He just doesn’t want me to go back to the guy who broke my heart but he fails to realize that he’s pushing me into his arms.

“You gonna stop talking me like that,” he walked closer to me. I backed up as he walked even closer. I wanted him as far away from me as possible. I hate when he gets like this. I looked into his eyes and saw them changing to a darker shade and I already knew what was about to happen. I closed my eyes and pleaded with him

“Channing,” I whispered but he slapped me; I held my cheek in pain.

“Put some makeup on that shit,” he said before he walked away. I went to the bathroom and stared at myself. This has been going on for far too long but I can’t bring myself to leave him. Believe it or not, I love Channing. I can’t just drop him like he’s nothing because he means a lot to me. I put makeup on my cheek before packing my last bag and putting it into the car. I drove to Aubrey’s house and prayed that he couldn’t see the mark or any other ones. I walked in with the key he recently gave me and he helped me get my bags into the guest room. I walked into My’s room and sat on her bed.

“How are you feeling baby?” I rubbed her hair. She looked better but she just looked extremely drained so I kept having her drink fluids.

“My side still hurts,” she groaned.

“Well it’s almost time for some more medicine,” I walked back into the guest room and got all of my stuff ready to shower. I took a long shower and wiped off all of my makeup; I’m just going straight to bed. When I got out, I changed into a big shirt. I got under my covers and was about to turn the lights off until I heard a knock at my door. Shit; I turned so he couldn’t see the side of my face before saying that he could come in.

“Hey, I just wanted to tell you about something Mylan told me earlier,” he sat on the edge of my bed. I wish that he just told me in the morning because now I have to stay turned away from him and pray that he doesn’t see my cheek. It’s obvious without the makeup and he notices any and everything about me.

“Okay and what was that?” I asked still turned away from him. I wondered what he could possibly tell me. What could Mylan say that concerned me in this matter? She might have said something smart or some shit like that. She has a smart mouth but knows better than to use that shit on me. I dare her ass to try that with me.

“She said that she saw your Mom when she was asleep and she told her that you were going through something dark that no one knew about,” he explained. Did he just say my Mom? Like my Mom who died? Why would she say that I’m going through something dark that no one knew about? I mean I am but I don’t know how she would know. Did she really see Mom?

“What!?” I snapped my face over to him and looked at him in shock. I completely forgot about my cheek because I was so focused on what he was saying. I saw him scrunched up his face as he eyed me but I quickly turned away from him. Please, please, please don’t say anything.

“Onika what the fuck happened to your face!?”