Chapter 57: Confessions

 

Drake

We were in this hospital all night and morning. Nicki clung onto me as we waited for news about Mylan. “It’s been too long,” she cried. I got her to stop crying at some point but she just started again. I’m scared for her too but I needed to stay strong for Nic.

“Baby stop crying, it’s gonna be alright,” I didn’t mean to let baby slip but she either didn’t mind or didn’t seem to notice. I miss having her in my arms and being able to call her baby. She’ll always be my baby in my head but I just had to fuck everything up when I was younger.

“I know but what if it’s not?” I pulled her away from me to wipe her tears. She had to stop thinking negatively. I know that Mylan is gonna be alright because she’s a fighter and she’s gonna beat whatever is going on in her.

“It will be,” I promised her. I felt her tense up and pull away from me when she looked up. She got up and walked into Channing’s arms as Nae, Blake, Mere, Cassie, and Shad came in. Cassie had Alexis on her hip and Alexis looked like she had been crying.

 “How is she?” Channing asked Nicki. I didn’t like him from the  first time I saw him at my house. He was acting like keeping Nicki away from me was more important than my daughter's health.

“We don’t know yet,” she sobbed. He pulled her close and looked over at me. I noticed his glared and gladly returned it.

“Why didn’t you call me?” I heard him whisper.

“I was a bit distracted by the fact that my daughter was rushed to the emergency room,” she hissed.

“I don’t want you alone with that nigga,” he said lowly but I heard him and didn’t like the way he spoke to her. He sounded like he owned her and she was just some piece of property.

“Can we not do this here?” she pulled away from him and went back to sit next to me. He came and sat on the other side of her and to say that it was awkward would be an understatement.

“Kyle and Derrick said that they’ll get your Dad and brother from the airport,” Cassie told Nicki and she nodded.

“Mommy,” Alexis wiped her tears.

“Yeah baby?” She looked down at her.

“Is My gonna be alright?” She looked like she was really scared to know the answer. I learned that she looked up to My as her big sister so I can see why she would be emotional.

“Yes,” Cassie assured her. Alexis put her hands in the air signaling that she wanted to be picked up but Cassie shook her head. “You’re too big to be picked up all of the time,” she frowned at her.

“If you want, I can hold her,” Shad offered. Cassie looked over at him shocked that he would even offer something like that and I was thinking the exact same thing. If he was trying to win Cassie back by being nice to her kid then he’s all out of ideas.

“I couldn’t ask you to do that,” Cassie declined but Alexis went next to him and held up her arms. He picked her up and she got comfortable in his lap. I noticed Cassie shoot Nicki a look and that made me think that there’s more to this than I know. Is this Shad’s kid?

“She said she wanted to spend more time as a family,” Nicki said lowly to herself. She kept saying things that she wished that she would’ve done or told Mylan. I had to remind her that Mylan is still here and she’s not going anywhere.

“And we will once she gets out,” I grabbed her hand and ran my thumb across it. She gripped my hand a little tighter and tried to hold herself together.

“She’s never been this sick Aubrey,” she started crying again. I don’t like seeing her cry but it is nice to have her close to me again.

“Hey, look at me,” she looked up and locked her eyes with mine. “Mylan is gonna be alright and we’ll make sure to do everything that she wants to do when she gets out,” I grabbed her other hand. She stared into my eyes for a minute just looking at me.

“Okay,” she nodded while Channing looked over at me angrily. He’s jealous because he’ll never make her feel the way I make her feel. I’m the only one who can calm Nicki down through situations like this.

“Come here baby,” he pulled Nicki away from me and into his arms. A few minutes later, Jaymie came in and looked for me.

“Is she alright?” She sat next to me.

“We don’t know yet,” I shook my head. Nicki knew that Jaymie and I were just friends and they actually learned to tolerate each other to the point where I can call them acquaintances. Then if this room couldn’t be more awkward, Daven rushed in with his girl. Nicki hopped up and hugged them before informing them that we didn’t know anything.

“I should go,” Jaymie whispered. I didn’t want her leaving just because he decided to show his face. She shouldn’t be scared of him because he said some foul shit to her.

“No, you’re gonna stay; don’t let him chase you away from here,” I looked at her and she nodded. Daven looked around and locked his eyes with hers and then they widen. I guess he hasn’t seen her in a while.

“Jaymie?” He scrunched his eyebrows up as if he wasn’t sure that it was her. She still looked the same in my opinion but maybe he’s memory is blocked.

“Hey Daven,” she smiled small. He smiled back and then walked over to her and pulled her into a hug. I was shocked and from Jaymie’s face; she was too. This nigga is too bipolar.

“How have you been?” They begun talking and I saw Nicki walking into the hallway leading to the bathroom and I got up to follow her.

Shad

Cassie went to the bathroom and Alexis was still in my arms. She turned and looked up at me. “You have my eyes and smile,” she touched my face. I snapped my face towards her when she said that. I got a good look at her and my eyes widen.

“Sweetheart, how old are you?” I needed to make sure. I know Cassie wouldn’t keep my damn child from me. She wouldn't be that damn evil to keep her from me.

“I’m five; my birthday was last month,” she smiled. I looked up and Cassie walked back. I picked up Alexis and put her in Blake’s arms before grabbing Cassie’s elbow and dragging her out of the hospital.

“What the hell is your problem!?” She snapped once I let go.

“You kept my damn child from me?” I dared her to lie to me. That shit is straight trifling. How she gonna keep my kid away from me for five fucking years!?

“She opened her big mouth didn’t she? Damn I was gonna tell you but I couldn’t think of what to say,” she mumbled.

“How about Shad you have a five year old daughter that I forgot to mention to you!” I yelled at her.

“Don’t yell at me! I did what I had to do for my daughter. You had a lot of growing up to do and were in no position to be a father. You still acted like a kid yourself and you know damn well you would have denied her if I told you,” she spat at me.

“I would have never denied her Casandra, you know I wouldn’t have. I would’ve been there for you but you didn’t even give me the chance,” I can’t believe that I’ve missed out that much on her life.

 “Look, I’m not gonna keep her from you but give me some time to explain it to her. Is that too hard to ask?” She locked eyes with me.

“No,” I pulled her into a hug. “Thank you for taking care of her for as long as you did,” I whispered. She nodded before wrapping her arms around me. She had her reasons and I fucked up when I was younger. I’m still mad but I’m not trying to pick a fight with her.

 

Jaymie

“I’ve been fine Daven, how about you?” I was honestly shocked that he was talking to me because of how we left off. Like what the fuck is he on or something?

“I’ve been good; got a couple of shows in Paris,” he smiled. He’s also smiling at me a lot. There’s gotta be something wrong with him because this Daven isn’t the same one that I remembered.

“I’m not trying to be rude but why are you talking to me? You kind of made it clear of how you felt about me six years ago,” I mumbled the last part.

“I ain’t mean what I said back then Jayms; I was young and dumb to even say that,” he was about to say something else but his girl walked over to us.

“So are you gonna introduce me to your friend?” She raised an eyebrow at him. Oh, she’s one of those bitches.

“Gabriella this is Jaymie, Jaymie this is Gabriella,” he introduced us.

“I’m his girlfriend,” she quickly interjected.

“I can see that,” I nodded before getting up. “I’ll see you around I guess,” and with that, I walked away.

Nicki

I walked into the hallway knowing that Aubrey was gonna follow me. I just didn’t want Channing to see that I was talking to him but Aubrey was the only one who could make me feel better in this situation. I turned around and was immediately wrapped in his embrace. I hugged him back as the tears begun to fall. “Come here,” he dragged me to the back and opened the door; leading us to outside of the hospital. He sat on a bench and pulled me to him. I allowed him to pull me into his lap and hold me.

              "I'm just scared for her Aubrey," I sighed. I don't know what I would do if something were to happen to happen to Mylan. She means the world to me and that would completely crush me.

              "I am too but I'm not gonna think the worst. We need to stay strong and you need to stop crying," he looked at me.

“She’s gonna be fine right?” I looked at him for assurance.

“Yes baby you already know that,” he rubbed my cheek. He’ll never know how him calling me baby does to me. Now I finally understand what Blake said at the reunion and what Nae said the day after. I leaned into him and tried to calm down. He still means so much to me and he doesn’t even know it.

Mylan

“Hello?” I called out but received no answer. I looked around and couldn’t figure out where I was. Was I like dead or something? Maybe I was dreaming but I wouldn’t know why I would dream something like this.

“Mylan,” I heard from behind me and turned around. I was shocked by who I saw and knew I had to have been dreaming. This couldn’t be who I thought she was but she looks just like the pictures I’ve seen.

“Mom?” When she nodded, I immediately wrapped my arms around her. “Where am I?” I asked when we pulled away. Now I was uneasy about this because she’s dead. Does this mean I’m dead too?

“This is a place between life and death,” she said. I’ve seen this in movies but I never thought that it was true. I thought it was just life or death not a place in between.

“Wait, am I gonna die?” My eyes widen; I was not ready to die. I haven’t even been kissed or gone to homecoming, prom, or turned eighteen. I can’t die this young.

“No sweetheart, you’re not gonna die because you’re gonna choose life. I’m only here to warn you,” she explained. Warn me? Did I do something or was I gonna do something that’s not good?

“Warn me about what?” I was scared of what she was talking about.

“Nicki, she’s done such a good job raising you and taking on the mother role. I couldn’t be more proud of her but she’s struggling with something right now; something dark. She might not show it but there’s more going on than you know,” she rubbed my cheek. She’s going through a lot more than I know? What is she going through? Is she like pregnant or something because I don’t want a sibling from Channing, I want it from my Dad.

“What do you mean?” I looked at her but she begun to vanish. “Mom!?” I tried to grab her but she slipped through my fingers.

“I love you Mylan,” she smiled.

“I love you too,” was the last thing I could say before she vanished and my eyes opened.