Chapter 40: Whatever It Takes

 

 

Nicki’s P.O.V.

I sat and waited for Aubrey to wake up. He's stable but they just want to monitor him for a couple of days. Everyone went home and I had Blake take My home. I thought she might stay to see Nae since she was in a coma but she flat out refused. I felt Aubrey’s hand twitching in mine. I called the doctor and he came in just in time to see Aubrey open his eyes. They asked him some questions before giving him some medicine. When they left, there was an awkward silence.

“I’m surprised that you’re actually here,” he mumbled. I don’t want to be here but I couldn’t bring myself to leave him. He means the world to me and I can never not care about him. He has a hold on me that will never be broken. He has the key to my heart and I would let him keep that forever. It's the thought of him almost dying that made me reconsider my decision.

“I hate you; I hate you so much. I hate that even though all the shit you’ve put me through, I still want you. I hate that and I don’t want to feel like this,” I cried. No matter what he does, I’ll always come crawling back to him. I hate that he can do this to me and I have no way to stop it.

“Nicki,” he tried to hold me but groaned in pain. He knows that he shouldn’t be moving right now and I don’t want him comforting me right about now. Just because I’m here doesn’t mean that I’m not still mad.

“Stop moving,” I hissed at him. He’s an idiot if he thinks he can move right now. The doctors told him to not move around but he never listens to nobody anyway so I’m surprised.

“I love you Onika and Jaymie was a huge mistake. She’s back in Toronto and promised to leave me out of her life. She felt bad for ruining out relationship,” he explained. Oh she felt bad for ruining our relationship huh? Where was that before she went out and kissed him? I’ll never like that bitch; she’s too shady.

“Why were you with Nae?” I asked him. Out of all people why would he be with Nae? I didn’t even know that they talked outside of practice before she quit.

“She’s been giving me the drugs,” he admitted. I kinda figured it was something like that. Nae stays addicted to that shit so she had to be getting it from somewhere.

“She’s in the game or something?” I questioned. Nae doesn’t seem like the type who would be in a gang but then again I don’t know anyone anymore.

“Her boyfriend is but sells pills and drugs,” he stated. She has a boyfriend? Maybe that’s why Blake’s mad. If she got back with Aaron then that’ll be the worst of it all. He was a horrible influence on her and we all knew that.

“If this is gonna work, I have a few rules,” I told him. He nodded for me to continue. “I want you to be completely honest with me no matter how bad it is. I’m not moving back in but I will come over. No female friends that I don’t know about. Finally, no more bashing Daven when you were way worse than he ever will be,” I locked eyes with him. He sighed before agreeing. He has absolutely nothing to say about Daven from what he did. He’s lucky that I’m taking him back anyway.

“Did you like kissing him?” He looked away. I knew that he would ask that question but I don’t see why he needs to know that.

“Did you like kissing her?” I cocked an eyebrow. Let’s flip the question around why don’t we? He wouldn’t like that.

“It wasn’t thinking Nic,” he promised. It wasn’t anything but you couldn’t have told me about the kiss yourself? Whatever, I’m trying to move forward.

“Well I was thinking and I damn sure liked it but I love you,” I rubbed his hand. I mean Daven could kiss so I wouldn’t lie; it was a really good kiss. It might have been good but he’s nothing compared to Aubrey, no one is.

“I love you too,” he smiled as I pecked his lips. He reached into his pocket and pulled out my ring. “Don’t take that shit off,” he said before slipping it back on. My finger felt lonely without that ring.

“Okay,” I smiled.

 

 

Mylan’s P.O.V.

Cousin Blake and Auntie Mere took me to the hospital first thing in the morning. I rushed to Daddy’s room and opened the door.

“Daddy!” I rushed over to him and hugged him. I didn’t mean anything that I told him. I was just mad and I was wrong. “I’m sorry,” I cried.

“It’s okay baby girl,” he kissed my head. He pulled me on to the bed with him and I laid my head on his chest. He will always be my Daddy no matter what happens.

 

Drake’s P.O.V.

“Alright it’s been a while since we’ve practiced. I’m better now and we all should start working to become all-stars world,” I told the team and everyone cheered. We taught them a dance and everyone was doing well. It’s nice to see that we have a good group of girls that could pick up on things quick. James is doing really well also so that was surprising with Kolbie being around; she’s his biggest distraction.

“Good job babe,” I told Nicki as I walked by her. It’s funny how far things have come because before I would never compliment her but now I do it effortlessly. I noticed Blake look completely distracted but she was still doing the dance perfectly. “What’s wrong with Blake?” I asked Mere. She never looked this distracted in practice.

“She’s just in her head. I think the whole Nae situation is messing with her,” she explained. Stuff like that does mess with your head when you’re not sure what will happen to someone close to you.

“You don’t think she’ll go back to her do you?” I looked at Mere. She glanced at Blake before turning to look at me.

“I truly don’t know. I hope not but I know that Nae was her first love,” she sighed.

“What about you? Would you go back to your first love?” I questioned her. I never liked Antonio because he used to beat the shit out of her. I caught him one time and gave him a piece of my mind. After that, he never bothered Mere again until she agreed to meet up with him.

“If he got better then yeah; I love him more than anything but he’s never gonna get better,” she admitted. He’s too addicted to shit and has been since he was fourteen.

“What about Blake?” I cocked an eyebrow. They seemed like they were in love but maybe that’s just me.

“I love Blake so much but nothing is like your first love. She would go back to Nae if she was completely better; we both know that,” she confessed. Everyone knew that but that won’t be happening anytime soon. Maybe this accident will open Nae’s eyes because it opened mine.

“You’re pretty strong,” I bumped my shoulder with her. She’s unsure how things would play out but she’s not breaking down about it. Mere has always been strong from all the years I’ve known her.

“Thanks,” she smirked before we continued with practice.

 

Blake’s P.O.V.

I’m sitting here on the roof, enjoying the view of the sky. I finally told Paris that Shad was our brother and she took it well. We’re both flying out this weekend to see Dad. It’s nice that we’ll be a complete family. As for my Mom, she can kiss my ass. I can’t stand her for all that she did. She made a choice that took away parts of my childhood and I can never forgive her for that.

“Baby, why are you on the roof?” Mere asked as she sat next to me. I just shrugged because I didn’t even know the answer. It just got late and I just decided to go on the roof. High places give me freedom to imagine anything that I want. I can pretend that everything is perfect up here. “Can I ask you something?” She looked over at me.

“You know you can ask me anything Mere,” I shot her a small smile. She knows that I’ll tell her anything that she wanted to know. Mere’s easy to talk to about anything that you need to.

“Why don’t you want to visit Jaznae?” She cocked an eyebrow. Of course she would ask that question out of all the questions in the world. That was the one question that I didn’t want to answer.

“Anything but that,” I mumbled. It was silent for a while before I finally answered. “She was a horrible friend and girlfriend. She brought out the worst in me and she cheated on me,” I sighed. I never told anyone that she cheated on me because it hurts to say that. She literally spent half of our relationship lying to me and that is something that I’ll never forget.

“She cheated on you?” She scrunched up her face.

“Yep, she fucked her ex after I told her that we kissed,” I explained. That never made any sense to me but Nae doesn’t make sense in general.

“Look don’t take this as me trying to get you back with her because you best believe you’re mine,” she giggled; I let out a smile. “I just think as a friend, someone should be there for her. For god sake, she in a coma! I can’t imagine my old best friend being in a coma. I might hate my old best friend but at the end of the day, she was still my best friend,” she rubbed my back.

“I feel you but Nae’s different. She only cares about herself and needs help. She’s pushed me too far,” I shook my head. Nae needs to get some damn help for all of us. She’s just spiraling out of control and doesn’t seem to care. What’s the point of caring about someone who doesn’t care about themselves; no point at all.

 

 

Nicki’s P.O.V.

“You gotta stop running when shit gets hard,” Aubrey told me as we sat on the couch in his living room.

“What else am I supposed to do Aubrey? You fuck up and I always end up taking you back,” I rolled my eyes. I don’t get how this comes back to me. He just can’t man up to the things he’s done to me.

“You never let me explain anything, you assume things. This is part of the reason why I don’t tell you everything. I know you’ll blow up and take things to the extreme,” he shook his head. I don’t tolerate lying yet that seems to be the only thing he does.

“I wouldn’t have to run if you didn’t fuck up,” I crossed my arms. He always does something stupid and expects me to forgive him every time. I’m sick of doing exactly what he thinks I’m gonna do. It’s like he get a pass for fucking up.

“Don’t get an attitude about this. I’m not the only one who contributed problems in this relationship. You need to start hearing me out,” he locked eyes with me.

“I’ll start hearing you out as long as you stop fucking up,” I shrugged. It’s not my fault that we’re at this point in our relationship.

“If something happens, you need to let me explain Onika. You can’t keep running from this. It’s like you’re running away from our relationship,” he scrunched up his eyebrows as something finally clicked. “Are you running away from our relationship?” I bit my lip and thought if I should tell the truth or not.

“I don’t wanna get hurt Aubrey. I can’t take it if you hurt me to the point where I won’t be the same. There’s only so much that I can take before I’m done,” I said honestly. I can’t take anymore lies and anymore secrets. I can’t handle getting hurt to the point where I lose all of my trust in him. I can’t be with someone if I can’t trust them.

“Stop running and just trust me okay? I promise that’ll make things a lot easy. Don’t be afraid to fall Onika, I’ll always be here to catch you,” he grabbed my hand.

“Okay,” I nodded.

~

“Hey,” I startled Daven as I walked up behind him. I have the tendency to do that and I keep forgetting until someone goes off on me about it. It’s not like I do it intentionally.

“Hey Nic,” he smiled before shooting his ball into the basket again. He sat down on the steps and patted the spot next to him. I sat down as we both looked ahead. It was quiet for a while but I knew that he wanted to ask a certain question so I waited.

“Did you forgive him?” He looked as if he already knew the answer. I guess he just wanted to check with me to see if it’s true.

“Yeah, I kinda got him back when I kissed you. We’re just trying to start over and take things slow,” I explained. I’m not rushing things with Aubrey this time around; I’m not ready for that.

“I can’t take Jaymie back. She lied to me about so much where I don’t even know her anymore,” he shook his head. She did lie about a lot to him and I feel bad because I know that he truly love her with all of his heart. Then again I never liked that bitch so I don’t feel that bad but I feel bad for him.

“Well I’ll still be here for you as a friend. Aubrey can’t say anything because we have an agreement. I can hang out with you whenever I want,” I smiled. He knows better by now because we’ve been over this.

“I need to know something,” he rubbed his chin. He only does that when he’s thinking too hard which makes me question the next words that would come out of his mouth.

“Shoot,” I leaned back. I braced myself for a question that I think he’ll ask because I’ve been asking myself that same question.

“Why did you kiss me? I know it wasn’t just to prove a point,” he locked eyes with me. There you go, it’s complicated to answer that.

“I wanted to make Aubrey mad and I knew he hated the thought of us together. I also wanted to see what it was like to kiss you,” I shrugged. That’s the true reason because I was curious.

“Well what was it like?” He wiggled his eyebrows. He’s too silly for his own good.

“You are a fool but it was nice. I’ll admit that I liked it,” I blushed slightly. I did like it but once again, he’s nothing like Aubrey.

“I liked it too even though we had an audience,” he joked. That’s what I love about Daven; he can take a silence and turn it into a laughing fest. “Promise me something,” he rubbed the back of his neck.

“What?” I raised an eyebrow at him.

“If things with ya man don’t work out, that you will give me a chance; a real chance,” he said shyly. I let a smirk cross my face.

“I promise,” I pecked his cheek before getting up.

 

Chapter 39: Betcha Gon’ Know

Daven’s P.O.V.

 

             Nicki insisted to come over with Drake today.  I’on know what’s going on but I know shit bout to pop off. Nicki never wants to be anywhere near Jaymie but she told me to make sure that she’s here. She knocked and Jaymie went to answer the door. I sat on the couch and waited for them to come in the living room.

“Hi Jaymie,” I heard Nicki say brightly. I scrunched my face up and turned to see the three of them. Why was she being so nice to Jaymie? I thought that she hated her but maybe she got past that. She’s acting all types of weird.

“Um hi,” Jaymie looked nervous. She walked straight to me and straddled me. I’m not gonna lie and say that I didn’t imagine her in this position before but I’m questioning why she was on my lap straddling me with Jaymie and Drake in the room.

“I’m gonna enjoy this,” she whispered before she grabbed my face and kissed me. I didn’t know what she’s doing but I damn sure wasn’t gonna stop it. I pulled her close and kissed her back. I think Drake and Jaymie were in shock for a minute but we were going at it. I gripped her ass and she moaned. She started to grind against me and I felt myself go hard. She pulled away breathless.

“Damn,” she mumbled. We stared at each other like we were seeing each other for the first time. I nodded before I felt her being pulled off.

“WHAT THE FUCK ONIKA!?” Drake yelled at her. I was still trying to comprehend what just happened but his yelling definitely snapped me out of it.

“What’s wrong?” She twirled a piece of her hair. She acted all innocent and I tried to wipe any of her lipstick off of my lips.

“YOU JUST MADE OUT WITH MY BOYFRIEND!” Jaymie got in her face. Nicki pushed her back and stared at the two of them. Jaymie might think she’s tough but Nicki is from Queens, I wouldn’t mess with her if I was Jaymie.

“Great, now we’re even,” she glared at them. Wait how are we even? She kissed me so that can only mean that they kissed.

“Y’all kissed?” I stood up quickly. I was pissed but I was still thinking about that kiss with Nicki. I mean I knew it would be good but damn.

“Shit,” Jaymie cursed. I was about to walk up to her but Nicki turned and placed her hands on my chest. I looked down at her and she stared at me for a second before talking.

“That’s not all I know. I told you Aubrey that I knew everything. Jaymie here was a stripper,” Nicki smirked.

“WHAT THE HELL!?” I grabbed Jaymie as she tried to walk away. “This true?” I looked at her. She wiped her tears and nodded. “That’s your third lie to me. I’m done with this shit and you go kissing him!? You full of shit Jaymie so get your stuff and get the fuck out. Get your ass on a bus and go back to Toronto,” I let her go. She ran upstairs to get her stuff. I wasn’t mad that she was a stripper, I was mad because she lied to me again. Drake and I glared at each other. I finally had enough and swung at him. I hit him good but then he hit me back. We tackled each other while Nicki screamed.

“Daddy!” She yelled. A big guy pulled us off of each other. He looked at Drake and knocked him out. I didn’t even know that she brought her Dad with her just in case shit popped off and it did.

“Damn,” I was shocked. He was out cold. To say I wasn’t happy to see that would be a complete lie. I was ecstatic about seeing him on the floor.

“That’s what he gets for messing with my baby girl,” he growled. “I’ll be back to help you get your stuff okay?” He looked at Nicki. She nodded as he kissed her forehead and left.

“Wow,” I was shocked at all that went down. I knew that something was gonna happen but I never imagined that it would be like this.

“I know,” she sighed. She looked exhausted and I didn’t blame her. I just feel tired of this back and forth with Jaymie. It’s like a love triangle turned into a square with the four of us.

“Damn that kiss,” I tried to lift the mood. She giggled and playfully rolled her eyes. I didn’t want the air to be so tense so I thought why not break it?

“That was to prove a point,” she reminded me. She and I both knew that it was more than that but I decided to let it go just because of all that just went down.

“Whatever you say,” I wiggled my eyebrows at her before she left. Drake started to get up and finally he left. He went after Nicki and I just saw Jaymie climb into a cab. Yep this day has been absolutely crazy.

 

 

Paris’s P.O.V.

I stormed into the kitchen and found Blake eating an apple. “Hey twin,” she smiled. I glared at her and she quickly caught on.

“You saw our dad without me,” I was pissed. How could she go see our Dad without me!? I’m his daughter too and I have a right to see him.

“Yep,” she bit into the apple again. I continued to glare at her and she smiled. “I’m sorry, did you want one?” She pointed to her apple. I can’t believe that she’s acting like it’s nothing.

“I can’t believe you! How could you do that!? I wanted to see him too!” I whined. I know that I sounded younger at this moment but I am and I’m pissed.

“Call us even,” she smirked. Blake doesn’t get even with people so I must have pissed her off enough but that’s no excuse.

“Fuck you Blake!” I turned and marched upstairs. Maybe this is how she felt when I told her that we were twins. She did know that he was her Dad years before I did so I can’t be mad but I’m gonna be stubborn. She’s an ass and so am I; I guess that’s why we’re twins.

 

Drake’s P.O.V.

I ran home and saw Nicki packing her stuff. “Nic let me explain,” I grabbed her but she pulled away from me. She continued packing and I tried again but she pushed me from her.

“You don’t have to explain shit!” She grabbed more of her things. I knew that she wouldn’t listen to me but I didn’t want her leaving especially without hearing my side of the story.

“Nicki just listen to me! It was a mistake!” I told her. Kissing Jaymie was a huge mistake and I regret that so much.

“Bullshit! If it was then you would have told me!” She pushed me away and went to get her stuff from the bathroom. I didn’t tell her because I didn’t want this to happen.

“Where are you going?” I asked her. She can’t just leave me, we need to talk this through but of course she’s running from our problems. I constantly lie to her and she constantly runs.

“Away from you,” she pushed past me. She kept moving fast to get her stuff. She was acting like I wasn’t even there.

“I know you were mad but you had no right to kiss Daven like that in front of us,” I snapped at her. That was straight disrespectful. She could’ve told me that she knew and we could have talked about it. Instead of acting like adults, she turned to her childish ways and got even. She stopped walking and looked at me like I was crazy.

“Your delusional ass isn’t even worth it,” she mumbled before getting My’s things. I’m delusional? How am I delusional when I know what I said was right?

“Please don’t leave. What about My? How will she feel?” I followed her into My’s room. She rolled her eyes at me before responding.

“Oh she’ll be fine,” Nicki smirked before opening the door. To my surprise, My was already packing her things.

“I’m almost done Mommy,” she promised her. She looked like she was trying to hurry to get away from me and that made me frown.

“Okay baby,” Nicki kissed her head before pushing past me. I guess she was gonna go and get more of her things.

“What are you doing My?” I asked her as she packed. She didn’t respond right away and that made me worried. Why won’t she talk to me?

“Leaving with Mommy,” she shrugged. She says that like it’s nothing but does she even comprehend what’s happening?

“You wanna leave your Daddy here by himself?” I looked down at the young seven year old. She stood up to looked at me.

“My Daddy is actually on his way to pick us up. I’m fine with leaving you Drake,” she snapped before getting more of her stuff. To say that hurt me would be an understatement; it completely crushed me. I watched them pack their things into Nicki’s dad’s car. She begged him not to come in to beat me up anymore. Nicki finally walked back in to grab her purse.

“Onika please,” I pleaded. She looked at me and stepped closer until our lips were inches apart. Before I could lean in, she placed held something in between. I grabbed it and noticed it was the promise ring.

“I’m done Aubrey. This relationship was going down far before Jaymie came into the picture. I’m exhausted and I can’t take this anymore. I need to focus on me and my academics. I need to focus on My and how to raise her. I can’t always be worried about this relationship and how it’s gonna end. It’s gonna end bad so I’m ending it before we get there. If Jaymie is who you really want, then go be with her,” she pecked my cheek before walking out.

 

Nae’s P.O.V.

“Hop in,” I told him as I unlocked the door. He slid in and I pulled off. “You ran out already?” I asked him. He stays running out of those pills but I don’t mind because that gets Antonio more money.

“I was going through shit,” he mumbled. He’s always going through shit to the point where it’s ridiculous.

“Nicki dumped your ass didn’t she?” I smirked a little. I told him before he started popping pills that Nicki would leave him but he didn’t listen. No one can say that I didn’t warn him because this shit is addicting.

“Shut the hell up and drive,” he commanded. He’s always in a bad mood and that just ruins my mood because I’m on an all time high.

“Someone’s cranky,” I laughed. He’s so annoying and childish when things don’t go his way even when he’s the one who fucked up.

“You always got some slick shit to say. What about Blake huh? I’m sure Mere has already gone down on her. How does that make you feel; Mere being her first and not you?” Drake smirked. I took a deep breath and tried to contain my anger for him.

“Take that back,” I snapped. I didn’t need to hear that shit and he knew that but he kept on bothering me. That’s the last thing I needed to hear.

“Naw, I mean we both know it’s true. Do you even know if they did more than kissing when y’all were together?” He cocked his head. I gripped the steering wheel tighter and got angrier at him.

“If you don’t stop, I might just crash,” I tried to contain my anger. I warned him but he completely ignored me and kept talking.

“But weren’t you the one talking shit? You and I both know that Blake will never take you back. Who would want your druggy ass anyway?” He smirked. I know he’s all kind of fucked up from the drugs but I got pissed the fuck off.

“I fucking hate you!” I shouted to him. He was fucked up and so was I but that doesn’t make what he said any better. It’s worse because I already know all that shit.

“What’s new?” He yawned. We continued to shout at each other and I stopped paying attention to the road.

 

Chimere’s P.O.V.

I sat in the hospital in tears. Blake tried to calm me down but I kept crying. Nicki rushed in with My. When I saw her, I got up and she hugged me.

“What happened?” She asked when we pulled away.

“Aubrey and Jaznae crashed into another car. Jaznae already is in a coma and Aubrey has been going in and out. They don’t know if either of them is gonna make it,” I explained to her. The thought of Aubrey dying scared the life out of me. He can’t leave us here, he just can’t. Aubrey is one of the only men in my life that actually cares about me and looks out for me. I can’t handle it if he died.

“Daddy’s gonna die?” Mylan had tears in her eyes. She looked ashamed but also sad. What would My be ashamed of?

“No sweetheart, everything is gonna be okay,” Nicki kissed her before sitting down. She’s just trying to make it better and trying to stay on the positive side. “This is all my fault,” she mumbled.

I find it weird that literally a month from today, you guys will be reading chapter 52 and almost a month from that you guys will be ready chapter 65 unless I change some dates; just a random thought.

Chapter 38: Your Love is a Lie

 

Blake’s P.O.V.

Nae: Let me explain before you assume anything

Yeah she really thinks that she can explain this one. I swear Nae gets on my damn nerves. “Alright, I’m going by Nae’s,” I told Mere. I was very shaky about going over there but I controlled myself and calmed down my nerves. I was nervous that I would blow up on her but she deserves it. I just never wanted to blow up on her again after that whole hospital thing.

“Be careful,” she warned before pecking my lips. I love a girlfriend who could trust me. It just showed how much she has faith in our relationship. Mere never got jealous and I was thankful for that because I don’t get jealous.

“Always,” I smirked before kissing her again. I walked out and drove to her house. I knocked on the door and Karla answered.

“I never expected to see you again. It’s nice to see you Blake, she’s in her room,” she let me in. I never wanted to come to this house again but I want answers before I’m done with Nae once and for all. I took a deep breath before knocking.

“Come in Blake,” she called out. That was completely weird but I just shrugged it off and opened her door.

“How’d you know it was me?” I asked while walking in. Her room didn’t change but I spotted two bottles of pills on her desk. I see that she hasn’t changed either.

“Karla never knocks,” she cracked a small smile. I sat in a chair while she sat on her bed. I was not here for smiles and jokes; I’m here for answers and answers only.

“Well explain,” I crossed my arms. I’m really interested in what she has to say because I know Aaron and I knew when they were together.

“Look I’ve been with him for about a year-,” she started but I cut her off.

“A year! A fucking year!?” I snapped at her. She was with him for a year!? She was dating him while she was dating me? I knew Nae could go low but I never thought that she would do that to me of all people.

“Calm the hell down and let me finish,” she snapped back. I sighed before sitting back in my seat. “It was on and off. When I got with you, I wasn’t with him. When we broke up, I went back to him,” she explained. Of course she goes back to the guy who got her addicted to this shit. That's the smartest idea she ever had; note the sarcasm?

“Did you fuck him when you were with me?” I stared at her. I feel like I already know the answer but wanted to see if she’ll tell me the truth.

“Why does that matter? You were out kissing Chimere,” she crossed her arms. Of course she’s gonna throw that shit in my face. It was a fucking kiss! A kiss is far from fucking someone else when you’re already in a relationship! I need to take a deep breath and calm down.

“Answer the question Jaznae,” I called her by her full name so she would know that I was serious. I was so beyond done with her at this point. I had one more question and then I will leave.

“Once,” she sighed. At least she actually told the truth instead of lying and expecting me to believe any bullshit that comes out of her mouth. All she tells are lies these days so hearing the truth is surprising.

“When?” I turned my head knowing exactly when. This is exactly why I’m done; I can’t take her bullshit anymore. Of all people to hurt she hurts the one who was always there for her. I never once made her feel like a bad person but now I’m just seeing who she really is.

“When you told me that you guys kissed,” she admitted. She would do that shit to just get back at me. She’s that pitiful and childish so I’m not surprised.

“That’s all I needed to know,” I got up but she pulled me back. I’m so done with being here so whatever she has to say she better hurry up before I blow up on her.

“I’m sorry okay. I never meant to hurt you. That’s exactly why I didn’t want to get with you because I knew it would end like this; it wrecked our friendship,” she cried. She actually tried to make me feel sorry for her. And the academy goes to Jaznae for being the greatest actress I ever met because she really had me fooled. She really made me think that she actually cared about me but she only cares about herself. That’s just it, she’s not herself. All these fucking drugs that she takes are turning her into a completely different person and I’m just done.

“No, you wrecked our friendship. You’re too childish and I’m so beyond done with you at this point. Do all of us a favor and get some damn help Nae,” I glared at her before leaving. Fuck the old Blakelynn because I would have forgiven her but the new one doesn’t give a fuck.

Jaymie’s P.O.V.

“I feel like a cheap hoe,” I sighed to Aubrey as we sat on the couch. I can’t believe he has me here of all places.

“Hey, they don’t want us hanging out so I had to do something,” he shrugged. He acts like it’s not a big deal but it is.

“But a hotel Aubrey!? This makes it look worse than it is,” I chuckled. It’s so beyond stupid that it’s hilarious. Only Aubrey would think of shit like this.

“So it’s not like we’re gonna fuck,” he looked at me. He’s right about that but it still doesn’t make me feel any better.

“Nope, I’m good with Daven,” I smirked. I’m perfectly fine with Daven and I wish he could see that but he’s mad at me. We’re making progress so I guess that counts.

“And my girl is the best I ever had,” he smirked back. I shook my head with a grin on my face. Did he really just use that line at me?

“Doubt it,” I grabbed another piece of pizza. It was so good and I haven’t had pizza in forever. I’m on a diet but I say fuck it; today is my cheat day.

“Why fat ass?” he laughed before grabbing another piece. He always called me that because I would eat so much but wouldn’t gain a pound when I was younger.

“Because you wrote that song about me,” I sat back and stared at him. He looked at me a little surprised but then nodded.

“You remember that song?” He rubbed the back of his neck. He actually thought I wouldn’t remember a song that he wrote about me? I loved that song and I still have it on my iPod.

“Yep, you wrote it while you were with Nebby. She thought it was about her and since I didn’t wanna start any drama,” I left it there.

“If you knew that the song was about you, why didn’t you tell me?” He questioned. He thought that it would’ve been so simple to tell him but it wasn’t like that back then.

“Because I didn’t want to start any drama,” I repeated. Let’s just say Nebby and I don’t exactly see eye to eye. She wanted Aubrey but I had him first so she hated me. When we broke up, she had no problem being his rebound.

“Shit you know I would’ve left Nebby for you. You’re the one who ended things,” he put his head in my lap. I knew that he would’ve left her for me but I didn’t want that.

“I was scared,” I said small. We never talked about why we broke up. I never really wanted to get into that just because. It’s just hard remembering the past that has so many hidden horrible memories.

“Scared of what?” He looked up at me. I was scared of a lot of things dealing with him because he made me feel some type of way.

“Of love Aubrey,” I rubbed his curls. He made me feel a way that I never felt before at that time. I was scared because I didn’t know what it was but I know now that it was love.

“Too bad we didn’t have this talk years ago,” he closed his eyes. We should’ve talked it out but I always avoided that topic.

“Yeah, too bad,” I looked down. We locked eyes and just fell into a staring battle. “Um,” I broke the stare and grabbed another pizza.

“That’s the last one!” He complained. He’s suck a baby and I couldn’t help but giggle at his facial expression.

“Oh well,” I bit it. “Mine,” I ate more. He grabbed the rest from me. “Aubrey!” I pouted. He knew better than to take my food.

“Fat ass,” he tore it in half and gave me a piece.  I smiled happily before grabbing it and finishing my half. This pizza is so good but maybe it’s because I haven’t had food like this is months.

“You used to love this fat ass,” I laughed before getting up to grab a drink. I was joking but when I heard him, that made me stop walking.

“Still do,” I heard him mumble. I acted like I didn’t hear it but I knew how that made me feel. I kept quiet and just grabbed a can of soda that we bought.

Nicki’s P.O.V.



“So what’s new?” I asked Cassie and Blake. They came to my house so we could catch up. It’s been a while since we all could really talk.

“I’m getting help,” Cassie smiled. It’s nice to see that Shad is helping her get the help she needs and deserves.

“That’s great Cass,” I rubbed her back. I was truly happy for her.

“I talked to Nae,” Blake said. I groaned at the sound of that and looked at Blake cautiously, scared of what else she might say. When you add Nae in an equation and then add drugs and someone else, you get a disaster. Nae really is a good person when she’s not on drugs and I have no idea when I’ll ever see the old Nae.

“Don’t tell me that you forgave her,” I sighed. I swear if she forgave her, I would be so done at this point. She knows just as well as I do that Nae needs help.

“Hell naw, I told her ass to get some help!” Blake exclaimed. We all fell out laughing because that is so not like Blake.

“Damn I like this new Blake,” Cassie laughed. She’s been so much more opened and blunt where is hilarious to see this side of her.

“Thanks to Mere,” she blushed. It seemed like she was truly happy to be with Mere and that’s great. I didn’t want her thinking about Nae because that’ll just make things worse.

“So how about you Nic? How’s Coach Graham, I mean Drake. It’s gonna take me a while to get use to that,” Cassie chuckled.

“I’m so done by this point. He’s been sneaking around to hang out with his ex like I don’t know. I know they’re not doing anything but the fact that he’s sneaking around makes me mad. If he kisses that bitch, he better be prepared for me to play fire with fire,” I shook my head in anger. Blake and Cassie shared a look before looking at me again.

“He’s gonna be fucked up,” Blake mumbled.

“Damn right he is,” I smirked. I already had it set in my head what to do if he kisses that bitch and I’m not afraid to do it.

~

“Get off of me,” I pushed Drake off. He wanted to have sex like nothing was wrong. At this point, sex with him isn’t even the same. I’m too focused on him lying to me time after time to the point where it’s a routine.

“Man why don’t you ever want to have sex anymore?” He sighed. I shook my head and got up. “Where are you going?” He called out to me but I just left. I grabbed some sweats and a jacket before walking out the door. I walked next door and knocked. Daven came out dressed and got into the car.

“Where to this time?” He looked over at me.

“I don’t even know,” I admitted as we started driving.

 

Drake’s P.O.V.

Mylan wanted to hang out with Nyra so I took her over there. Kolbie wasn’t there so it was just Jaymie and I. “What do you think they’re doing?” Jaymie asked me.

“Bashing us,” I bet. I’m so sick of her hanging out with Daven every time we got into an argument. She always has to go to him and that just makes me even angrier.

“Let’s do something fun,” she pulled me into the kitchen. We started making spaghetti but I kept throwing noodles at her until I accidently threw some of the sauce. “Aubrey! Do you know how long it’s gonna take for me to get this out of my hair!?” She pouted. I laughed while grabbing more. “Stop Aubrey!” Jaymie shrieked as I grabbed her by her waist. I turned her around and our laughing immediately stopped. She placed her hand on my cheek and stared in my eyes. “Aubrey maybe we shouldn’t do this,” she mumbled.

“I just wanna see if it’s still there,” I whispered as she got closer. I leaned in to meet her halfway and our lips locked. I pulled her closer as I deepened the kiss. She grabbed my head as I picked her up and sat her on the counter. I moved down and kissed her spot. I started sucking on it as I heard her moan.

“Aubrey,” she whispered. I went back and attacked her lips. She pulled her shirt off and I pulled her closer.

 “Aah!” We heard a scream and immediately pulled apart. I looked past her and saw Nyra. She ran back upstairs as I backed off Jaymie. She put on her shirt and we stood in silence.

“That shouldn’t have happened,” she said lowly. I don’t know what came over me because this wasn’t supposed to happen.

“I know,” I nodded before heading to the door. Nicki is gonna kill me and she has every right to. I fucked up and I just hope that she doesn’t find out but she finds out everything.

“Hey,” she pulled my hand. I turned back to her. “For what it’s worth, it’s still there,” she smirked slightly before letting me go.

 

Mylan’s P.O.V.

“I saw your Daddy doing the nasty with Auntie Jaymie,” Nyra whispered to me.

“But Daddy is with Mommy,” I scrunched my face up.

“I saw them,” she shrugged before playing with her toys. Mommy said when two people are doing the nasty then they love each other. Do they love each other? What about Mommy?

~

“Mommy?” I looked up at Mommy as she brushed my hair.

“Yes baby?” She asked me.

“Does Daddy love Jaymie?” I asked curiously.

“Why would you ask that?” She stopped brushing and looked at me. I looked at her scared and quickly shook my head. “You can tell me anything My,” she put me in her lap.

“Nyra saw Jaymie and Daddy doing the nasty,” I whispered.

“You mean kissing?” She looked at me to make sure. I nodded and she tucked me into bed. “Goodnight baby,” she kissed my head.

“Goodnight mommy,” I looked at her confused and I think I heard her say, “Here we go.”